A kaleidescope of colours erupted from me last night
when waves of pain hit me in a mish mash,
rising up through my solar plexus
and crawling slowly up my esophagus,
just to remind me
IT was still thriving.
Of course, since my thirtieth year, I have known
it will never take leave and have since wrapped myself
in purple ribbons,
trying to wear it (YOU)
as a badge of honour,
after all, we are fastened
whether I fight with blood curdling screams,
or a thin, courageous smile.
Your violet whips predictably constrict
my center,
clashing with the manipura yellow that weakly
filters through,
still fighting for it’s rightful frequency.
Ironically creating the colour of excrement.
Still fighting.
I still fight.
Even when you trick me,
becoming remiss for a year or more,
letting me enjoy yellow roses growing in my belly
for a little while, only to rip them away again.
Even when I can’t leave my bed for days,
staring at the ceiling, writhing in pain
and waiting for the lava eruptions
to send me running to the khazi.
Even when I am drowning in guilt as I,
paralyzed,
weakly watch the world spin 'round me as
I look into my disappointed children’s faces.
I still fight.
Because I am angry.
I am strong.
Because I still can.
About the Creator
Tracy Kreuzburg
I love reading, writing and storytelling, and using stories to convey truths. I feel this is a platform that will encourage me to write my stories, I also have an interest in connecting written work to art.
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