I was rejected many times

Rejection has different faces.

One is silent like a shadow.

The others seem to run to you without notice.

Overtime discouragement and disappointment lingers.

Months ago and still is, job application is like my meal.

Every day I browse the internet and I apply.

I got few responses, some are for test assessment

and quite a few for an interview spot.

Days, weeks have passed. Those are my routines.

Been practicing my communication skill.

Since my interview schedule is set.

I got excited just thinking about it.

Never did I know, the ones I feel confident about.

Didn't pull through, they decided to go in another direction.

I was disappointed and lost in thought.

Possible mistakes I made popped out.

It was so never this painful before

That it's hard to get this out of my head.

It still feels like it's just a dream.

To be rejected so many times over.

I don't want to accept it and just wallow myself into blaming

Maybe because I am not good enough?

Was it how I spoke that determined the rejection?

Or it's just I was not a good fit to them.

But, I decided to let it go and carry on.

I write my response to the email and thank them for their time.

At the same time asking for interview feedback.

This is how I can cope and stop expecting and just let it go.

Hoping and praying everyday that I can get a job

It would be a dream come true

Never giving up

Is my armor