I Want To Love You
But I’m a little bit broken
Habits are hard to make,
But trust me, habits are even harder to break,
I’ve been alone for a very long time,
Tormented over my greatest mistake.
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I’ve been convinced life is better this way,
And two decades have since flown past,
I’m stronger, happier and less lonely on my own,
I’ve become the ultimate successful outcast.
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Helps that I’m an introvert,
Fiercely protective of my time and space,
I overwhelm quite easily,
Needing to recharge alone some place.
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Does that make me crazy,
Maybe a little insane,
Difficult to understand,
Being with people is an emotional drain.
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It’s not about you,
It was never about that,
I’ll take the blame,
Yes maybe its me that’s a brat.
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I try to meet people half way,
I understand that I’m difficult to figure out,
Independent and terribly stubborn,
But I’m made up of more than my anxiety and doubt.
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I want to love you,
But I’m a little bit broken,
I’m a hot mess, I’ll admit,
And not a truer word is spoken.
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My heart is raw, bloodied to a pulp,
I’m not sure it even works anymore,
It’s hesitant to take a risk,
As it’s been beaten and shattered before.
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My days of being a part of a pair,
Are long gone, that boat has set sail,
Life is more peaceful when there’s only one,
Less stressful and unlikely to fail.
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So forgive me,
If this habit is instilled through and through,
But I’m still a little bit broken,
No matter how much I want to love you.
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About the Creator
Colleen Millsteed
My first love is poetry — it’s like a desperate need to write, to free up space in my mind, to escape the constant noise in my head. Most of the time the poems write themselves — I’m just the conduit holding the metaphorical pen.
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Over the last six months, my heart has been broken and it still hurts, great word Colleen
LOVED THIS POEM SO FREAKING MUCH!!!!!!! Omgggg, it's soooooo accurate about me. We definitely are kindred spirits! Thank you for this poem, I just love it so muchhhhhh!
sad, yet beautifully written.