I May Just Be A Baby Bird. . .
But Watch Me Soar
I am all alone and in that is a peace
I have been standing on my own for a while
But this time there is a new belief
I have learned to fend for myself
To not rely on anyone else
No one else can live this life for me
No one can know me
No one can speak for me
When I open my mouth the world looks at me like I am insane
Maybe I am
But I would rather have those few that would stay through the hurricane
For that is what the depression and anxiety resemble
They stay
They choose to stay and they choose to back me
Whatever it is that I do they are there
It is not always in the way I want
Sometimes the reality of what they are trying to say
The harshness of a reality that no one wants
But never changes
I have to swallow my pride and admit that they have a point
That is all I do
I do not give up
Or give in
Just because the world wants me to cave
I am every bit the scared bird afraid to leave its nest
Where once I would have needed a push
Now I just jump
I use the tiny wings I was given and flap until it hurts
Flap as I brave the downpour of words that tell me what I can and cannot do
Flap as I shiver through the harshness of a heartless world
Flap as I tire from nowhere to rest my head from my own anxiety
And yet I do not tire
I flap til I reach the warmth of those that come around me, who choose me
I flap til I reach a branch and know that I am secure
I flap until I have nothing to give because that is how I know I am alive
I do not tire as I go
I do not allow myself to waver in my course
I know what I was put on this earth for
And I will be damned if I do not help others to soar
So to any predator who hears
Be that person, circumstance, or the evilness of mind
Try to cut my means to fly
Close my beak so that I may not speak
Rip into every part of me until I am left bruised and broken
But know that though you may see this scared little bird
It has the strength and endurance of an eagle
I may not be the biggest
Or strongest
Even the smartest
But you will see my shadow in the sky watching over you
Though you still refuse to understand
I do not care
I could never allow the world that hurt me to my core
Be a world that I allow others to live in
And for those that cannot fight on their own
Know that you are never
Never alone
We all fight for each other
We fight for a cause
And if we go down
Watch us burn all the brighter
And know that I did not falter
I did not give up
And one day
You will see the reason within
And may that bring to you a whole new worldview within
We are better than this world
But we need to be our own change
If nothing else in my life
I want to show that in everything I do
My hope to be this warrior
It will never come true
But just know that if you feel any of these words at all
Know I fight for you
I will keep on writing
I will keep on talking
I will keep sharing the truth of a world I know
Because I know I am not alone
I know that there are others
And it breaks my heart
Because I would never wish that on another human soul
Then to think that many have had worse
Feel powerless
Broken
With no one to turn to
That is not where you will stay
I refuse to give in to that thought
If there are only these words that reach you
Then know that you are loved
You may be broken but there is a great beauty in it
There is a power
And a fire
Do not let it be extinguished
Just because someone was blinded by the light that surrounded you
And only wanted to snuff you out
They are not worth your time
Nor your attention
Ton anyone or anything that had ever made you feel worthless
None of it can compare to the inferno that is you
There is anger, bitterness, and a worthlessness beyond measure
No word will heal
No amount of coming together will fix
I do not promise a solution
Nor do I promise you will heal
Time does not heal the wound but only lets the physical hurt fade
It tries to put on a mask
Tries to make you hide
Show that fear
Show that pain
Make it have a cause
Mine is to write and speak out just for you
I may not even know you yet
But you better believe I want to
There is no one who is more sweet, more kind
And more deserving of love than you
You are the you you need to be
And one day when your story is told all the way through
You will realize what we already knew
Those of us that stayed
Those of us that encouraged
Those of us that believed
That you were a light to bright for this world
That the world was not ready for someone like you
But is bereft of the presence you exuded now that its experience is done
Don't end the story while it is just beginning
Stick it through to the end
Maybe just maybe you will find in those of us that know
A true community and friend
Know that I continue to write for you
Fight just for you
And will never stop
Even to my dying breath
About the Creator
Maya Papaya
A creative at heart but a squirrel for a brain. Making the actual completion of anything is yet to be determined 😂
I am a content creator, writer, and world traveler (still getting to the last part)
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