I’m Done

I’m done with all the fear

All the trying

All the revision all the rewriting…

I was told to care, but taught to neglect

I was told to have peace, but taught to resent

I was told to have boundaries, but taught to give it all

I was told I was loved, but taught I was a burden to all

So I’m done

Done caring, done being peaceful, done being loved

Because you told me I could trust but you keep letting me fall

You told me I could trust you but you just let me fall

And where are you now that I’m lying on the floor ?

Where are you now, since you told me you’d be here and all

Where are you now that you’ve thoroughly screwed me over?

Where are you now as I finally give up mending my heart

I thought I could find a way to be complete, but I’m letting go of the thought

Letting go of what I was told, what I was taught, what I feared, and what I lost

Because I can’t live if I can’t trust a single person who’s met my eye

And I’ll forever be lost drowning in this endless stream of time

Thanks for the lesson

Here’s to dying inside