I grew up on Mr. Right

I know society has twisted my sense of love,

Growing up to romantic comedies,

Creating a criteria list of what is considered enough,

Dreaming of a man who would take care of me when I am sick,

Just like Jimmy Fallon did for Drew Barrymore in Fever Pitch,

Or to think I would be worth chasing after,

Just like the airport movie scene in Sleepless in Seattle,

I dreamed I would be following my path and the unexpected dream guy would walk in,

Just like Patrick Dempsy did in Lucky Seven,

Then you add a soundtrack to your soul,

Listen to singers sing about a woman they have to know,

Someone they can't imagine ever letting go,

We are raised to be treasured as little girls, to be given away at the altar,

A first dance with your partner and the last with your father,

You dream of feeling an immeasurable love on your wedding day,

A promise and partner, someone committed and choosing to stay,

I fell into this trap,

I make a living from it on top of all of that,

I love, love,

And I know it exists,

It just hasn't turned out the way I thought of it,

I've been chasing a dream,

Of a man filled with kindness, motivation and possibility,

Someone who is willing to throw a hat into spontaneity,

With the wired potential of a crazy enticing love story,

I have said end of season goodbyes,

To 4 different guys,

Showing me each time,

An adjustment to my type,

Till I find the one that feels right,

I have absorbed the emotions within the songs,

distorted my outlook every time it felt wrong,

From what I believe I knew,

A love that fit my criteria of truth,

The excitement and attraction to finding a person,

To be another half in my life's vision,

I can't say I want it any less knowing what I do now,

I just am finding myself lost on the how,

How to I let myself feel vulnerable again,

To let the scars of my past not sit on my skin,

How do I continue to believe,

That a special form of love will still find me,

I mean,

We are never short of new romantic comedies,

Or songs that fill our hearts with belief,

Even in real life I get to see,

A partner of love committing to the dream,

I understand there is more to the film closing,

And I understand the work that follows the unwritten scenes,

But I would like to make it past the point of climaxing,

To make it to the point of a partner invested in the solution,

To make it to my life and love, the movies stage of resolution,

I want to believe the movies I was raised on have grounds,

for the writing they stand on,

That the standards I have set for the story I dream to write,

Will lead me to someone who could be my Mr. Right.