I FORGIVE YOU / THAT IS ALL

forgiveness, a gift and a curse

forever is best and is worst

to see you again, I’m unsure

if it would go well anymore

I want to let the past be done

you want things to change and become

more like they had been way before

I don’t think you should be so sure

of yourself, your silence spoke volumes

for all of those years, and all of my tears

had cascaded around me to pool at my feet

and you were not there, you had to retreat

you had to be silent and still when it mattered

so I just ignored your frail heart as it shattered

when I stepped away, stepped far out of your life

you soon grew to resent my name in your strife

and we’re adults now, it won’t be the same

this isn’t the world we both thought we would claim

I want to stay far away from all this mess

you want to rebuild and relinquish your stress

I have to be honest, I can’t let you in

I could never hate you, I love what you’d been

to the me long ago, but I’m different, you see

it won’t be forgiveness you can wrest from me