I emulate you
I adore you
Or so I think I do
At four I was clay
I molded to be like you
.
Was it adoration?
Or was it out of fear?
Did I really love your company?
Or did I despise the cracks on my face?
I cannot remember
.
Now looking at the broken mirror
My four year old face
I still hear screams of them
My face a hole from cracks
Nerves numb from early years
Physical issues ensue
.
In my teen years
Dried skin
Sweatshirts in the summer
Concealer and prime a must
Their hands reached out
Yet I retracted mine
Fairy tale ensue in my head
Trips back to my room
First glance organized, pearly white, ideal
But the corners are a dusty, obsidian black
.
I looked at the dulled mirror again
My irises shrunken to a minimum
Hands and feet are constantly moving
Dehydration is a common feeling
My heart rate slowed and unstable
Gastro-acid barely kept at bay
.
I emulated you
From your unwanted temper
To your minor anxious symptoms
Your childhood
Your teen years
Soon your adult years and beyond
.
I am a perfect copy of a failure
About the Creator
Lovely Lucia
An archive of my stories I publish every now and then.
To the people who read my poems and short stories; Thank you!
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