You pulled the trigger on us,
this so-called us,
2 days after our one-year anniversary.
A year of what I made the sad mistake of disguising absolute hell for pure heaven.
It was inevitable, the gun had been loaded,
round after round.
It was my mistake, assuming I would never have to feel completely alone again.
But oh did I have my hopes up,
knowing in the back of my mind they would eventually plummet,
and indeed they did.
I am realizing now, how much I loved a version of you.
A version that only appeared once in a blue moon, through appreciation, and once in a while equal effort.
A version that only truly appeared in the first few weeks of this so-called us.
A version of you that was my best friend 2 years ago.
So I will sit in my solitude and I will grieve a person who isn't dead, but dead to me.
Although, I would rather keep the bullet this time.
jenna
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jenna j
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