While I thought about reasons to be grateful, I thoughy about the poetry that Ive written. I've compiled most of my best writings and here are the stories that tell my life and why...
I am Grateful!
I am grateful for change
Being able to live this life
all the surprises and everything unknown
Nothing lasts forever, nothing stays the same.
Horoscopes no longer apply to me
I am truly free
My future is mine
And can never be forseen
By anyone or anything but me
Because I have the power to change anything.
I am grateful for feelings
Feelings bring us close to one another
That good feeling we get
When we relate with eachother
And they are the reason why I write.
I am grateful for my past
Growing up I always thought,
Life doesnt have to be this way,
Watching grown folks stay the same,
I knew how I would make things change.
It seemed people didn't realize,
How much kids watch and observe,
When they thought no one was looking,
Words they thought no one heard.
Thoughts they had,
feelings they felt,
Werent just theirs
We become a reflection.
Ive learned to be mindful
Of what i put out into the world
Ive learned so much about life
Lessons we realize later on
Amazing how we heal with a little time
I am grateful for my present
I am happy with what i have right now
The little things are so important now
They will make stories for the future to tell
I am grateful for my kids
They make me feel so special
They are the reason i show gratitude
They are my love, my soul
Damien is the keeper of my heart
Apollo holds the key
They are the Alpha and Omega
Of me….
I am grateful for my boyfriend
Im not mad cuz he cheated
Im not mad cuz he lied
Im not mad cuz he said he hated me
Shit, im not even mad for all the times he made me cry
I do get hurt
But not like i did before
I just let it go
Theres alot of shit that i can ignore
Back in the day i wouldve flipped out
Leaving with a brutal emotional outburst
That would always end up hurting me more than anyone else
Either im just getting used to it
Or ....
After picking the same scab over and over again
The emotional scar has finally set in
Im done fighting
Im done arguing
And when you think i dont care
the truth is...
I care about you so much
And Arguments create negative energy
fights create breakups
And I just want to be happy
I dont know how this is working
I remember hating you and everything you did
Back in the day
But one thing is for sure
Is im not gonna waste my time
Losing you
Because I think I finally understand
Whats its like to Love
Unconditionally
I am grateful for lifes sadness
I write positive messages poetically
To tell the stories of my souls growth
But the most important messages i need to get out
Ive never witten and have never been told
To release the stress of my broken mentality
I feel like i need to be alone
My thoughts overwhelm me so much i cry
When no one is around i scream out loud
Ive sat in complete darkness
No lights, not a sound
And created stories in my mind
The what ifs, if only and if id done it differently
I connect the past to the present and created multiple futures for myself
I think about the beginning and ending
But never the struggle in between
My life has had alot of positive outcomes
But its the in between that scares me
Ive struggled more than what the outcome has been worth
Its like a huge rain storm
And the clouds never go away to see the sunshine
My rainbow slightly visible
But probably just in my head
My minds plays tricks on me sometimes
Ive avtually been running through a tunnel that never ends
I dont have much anger inside
I dont hate anyone who does me wrong
But my heart is broken
I hurt so much inside
That my tears have literally gotten bigger
Filled with so much emotion i cant control
I tried to talk but nothing ever comes out right
No one understands what im saying
No one sees how hard im trying
On top of dealing with the world
Im fighting a battle inside myself
I write positive messages poetically
Because maybe if I keep telling myself how good my life could be....
Someday it might actually happen for me.
I will always have faith
I am grateful for lifes happiness
The reason I live is to conquer life.
To become greatness at its greatest!
To become the best of the best!
To be a champion and master of Life
To become who I really am!
Deep down i am reminded
Of what I am supposed to do
The only way to become a pro, is to fail over and over until I get it right.
The only way to get through this life is to fail over and over until I get it right.
Without challenges I can't become stronger
Without experience I can't fight
Loving my life, blemishes and all
I love me..... And my inner light will shine!
I am grateful for hard times
Preoccupied with how I've been classified,
Forced to be alone
As I save my life,
The universe shows me the signs,
I have visions that I dont want to forget
So i sit and I write
I feel like now is my time
To explain my life....
The universe is always on my side,
Times I was lost, broken, and blind,
It always left something for me to find,
Every time I've fallen i found a ladder to climb,
Every step up was a struggle but that struggle is mine,
Every time I broke down to my knees and cried,
I wad reminded me to look up at the sky,
The guilt was heavy, but that guilt is mine,
Every time I hurt myself I became more dissatisfied,
The hunger grew in my eyes but that hunger is mine,
when i hated my reality, this blindfold was removed from my eyes
I created torture in my mind but that torture is mine,
When I gave up I didnt let myself die,
My suffering became my life, but the suffering is mine.
I am proud to carry everything that is mine,
Today I am strong and I am wise,
I've learned not to forget but leave the past behind,
I have found happiness when I stop and simplify,
I am not known to cause harm or tell a lie,
I am grateful for what I have and I am satisfied,
I use my knowledge in the best interest of everyone's life,
I am not jealous and I don't carry ill thoughts in my mind,
The words I speak are true, I don't feel different inside,
I love everything I have and I appreciate being alive!
I am my own savior, as the universe guides
I know I am right,
I refuse to lose sight,
No matter how hard they hit, I will continue to fight,
I will shed my light
For the truth is my alibi
This is my life
And this is what I testify.......
I am grateful for my success
My accomplishments
Keep my mental state on a positive note
I can do anything I want anything I dream
Without limitations my thoughts unfold
My downfalls and rock bottom moments
Keep my heart in tact
I love my pain and I love my suffering
I wouldnt be me without that
My confusion and indecisiveness
Are just here to amuse me
Dont forget life is a beautiful gift
I get through the toughest times when im laughing
I have a gift that allows me to sense what others cant
I see signs that others forgot to look for
I get messeges that pass on through energy
And I am going to save the world...
Crazy as it sounds.... But this is ME!
And im supposed write this..... Apparently
I am grateful for love
After years and practice
Of trying to find reasons
To love myself...
Here it is.
I love myslef because I cant find reasons to love myself. I cant find words, ideas, memories, and I cant find the meaning of me.
Thats how fucking incredible I am. Thats why there no words to express how great I am. The idea of me is beyond the meaning of happiness and love. My memories are only a tiny part of what my soul has actually been through! The meaning of myself is out of this world.....
Im going to love myself for what it is really worth
I am grateful for the odd moments
Not sure where to start
Not even sure if I'm finished…
I need to forgive myself .
Its alot harder then I think
I talk loud so they hear
Not knowing what my point is
I scare myself most of the time
Ignoring all limits
I can't see with my eyes
My heart won't listen
My mind to busy trying to escape
There still something missing
Emptiness by choice
Forgetting what I believed in
Saying fuck you to the odds
But I don't even have a mission
Kinda stuck in right now
Not doing to bad but I feel down
Confusing myself
The more i step out of bound
Questioning myself
My right to my crown
My authority, my reign
My silent sound
What am I waiting for
What am I supposed to do
Im trying to understand my mind
Ascending to fast so soon
Pausing my thoughts
Too afraid to think of what to do
Because everything I ever wanted
Has been coming true....
Ive become everything I said I wouldn't be
But I'm happy.... I'm free...
Being on all ends of the rope
There's no place I'd rather be...
Thank you universe for everything!
I am grateful for the Universe!
Dear Universe,
Thank you for everything that you have given me throughout my life. Thank you for blessing me with my two sons and thank you for all the time that I have to be with them. I am a good person and I am going to do good things that will help as many people as I can. Thank you for giving me what my heart desires
And thank you for always listening!
About the Creator
Valerie Martinez
I feel like I have more thoughts then most people. I like writing because im good at it. Ive been writing poetry since I was 13 and short stories since I was 28. I like writing dark stories that have beautiful enlightened endings.
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