Homesickness
The truth we're all seeking
London
Born to a long night ‘neath star scattered skies
Framed by amber leaves and crescent moonshine;
I searched for belonging in spaces that felt
Overcrowded, among faces so different from mine.
Still, I called it home –
these grey skies and lush fields familiar enough for it to feel so.
But just as my heart felt that it forged a space
For itself in the crowd, it was whisked away
Riyadh
Finding itself between people who seemed
To be so alike, yet adverse, to me;
I rented my place in this new desert land
And settled myself upon shifting sand.
A decade I stayed in this Kingdom apart
From the world. This strangely hospitable mirage
whose incense and date palms I remember fondly
Are now just that – a fond memory.
Lahore
Uprooted from palm trees and Tudor rose shrubs
Life planted me next to fragrant gulab;
Cradled by nargis and kanwal ke phool*
It felt just a little too nice to be true
The City of Gardens was where I belonged –
At least for the summer, a whole 2 months long.
Monsoon quenched the heat, swept the flowers away
And with them, my welcome; I had overstayed.
Now, when I return, twist my key in the lock
Of an empty apartment, shed my coat, slowly walk
To the kitchen, make my own blend of tea
And here I had an epiphany –
While I tend to my cactus and lily and rose,
Pour into them love that they need to grow -
It dawns on me, so I smile, roll my eyes
At my naivete, and I realise:
What they all had in common, how hadn’t I known?
I make space for me; I’ve always been home.
*Gulab, nargis and kanwal ke phool are roses, narcissus and water lilies, respectively.
** Nargis and Kanwal are my maternal grandmother and mother’s names, respectively.
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Twenty Seven Lehngas
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