hewn and now
running from myself, to rediscover that was what i was looking for.
i am hewn, and i am now. but once i was just hewn-
my substance stripped, all my parts dissolved, burned to cinder and coals.
hiding regrets of who i am amongst the smallest bits of truth.
i feared the apothic process within; doubted change could be the miracle.
my unfit pieces seemed to lack cohesiveness- an unsolvable puzzle.
i ran from feeling, sundered for long enough to come back to the beginning.
i was so long alone; disregarded my heart as it was; turning to rust.
a decaying sense of self was my armor, a defense most unconvincing
until i saw my parts from this other side not knowing they were mine.
as i collected with diligence the abandoned pieces, filled with wonder of,
"who would leave behind such immaculate perfection- who and why!???"
i saw familiar pieces once restored to their former glory, not from another.
years of running had led me to these- what i was looking for all along.
precious pieces that once made me feel lost were needed to know myself.
the self-dissection allowing fresh perspective of feeling unwanted.
once i was just hewn; today i am hewn and now. nothing less, nothing else.
About the Creator
⸘jason alan‽
:::WARNING:::
i am only responsible for what i say
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not for what you understand
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you may learn to be charmed by my [secret‽] discontent
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or you may not
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