Stop me. Before I build a wall around me -
crumbling, failing, I am
undone. unsaved. unraveled.
The chord hung virginal - untouched - a thousand unstrung violins crying for their soul's climactic salvation.
I am pavement under the black sky
Spinning wildly into a lustful kiss. Rabid and wanting, jolting awake the feeling of simultaneous redemption, ecstasy of a possibility unlived.
I am Jack's fucked up mentor. Leading dark into darker dark. I am searching -
The song, once so loud, playing fainter and fainter until the memory - unsung, untuned like the piano grazing your fingers - crumble beneath the weight of unburdened dreams.
Tell me the dust is not forever. Please, Maestro, I can't stand permanence -
I have no language to let you go. I have no language to remember how to say
Feel me. Hello. Feel me. Hello. Feel me. Goodbye.
I am unraveling faster than I know how to say
Goodbye.
Goodbye?
Where are you now? Where are you?
I am unraveled and undone.
Hello. Feel. Me.
A forest fire rages
untamed and undone...
I was walking home and thinking about a friend who passed away. With a jolt I realized his death anniversary is any day now, and it's already been a year. I am no closer to knowing how to say goodbye. Moreover his death put me on a strange path of breaking, unburdening, healing, love and light that I have no roadmap for and that I am still learning how to navigate. If this poem makes no sense - good. It doesn't make sense to me either, but neither does loss. And that's the point.
Opening line taken from a song that's gotten me through most of this year - "I Need a Forest Fire" by James Blake ft. Bon Iver.
About the Creator
Shals
a quest in modern poetry | a challenge to find the right words
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