Head and Heart

Everybody thought that you would be the one to save me,

But, underneath the surface, it was you who drove me crazy.

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Believe me when I say there was nothing more for us to do.

You say you saw it coming, but my love, I saw it too.

It did not only taint my dreams, but kept me up at night.

I had not slept in weeks because my head and heart would fight.

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Believe me when I say you were the best one for me,

And all I wanted was to love you for eternity.

But when I closed my eyes, I always saw his face instead.

Two years and still his presence presses down on me like lead.

It worsens as I try to make the feelings go away,

Because no matter what I try, my love for him will always stay.

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Would you believe me if I told you I cried every night for weeks?

Or would you just laugh bitterly and turn the other cheek?

I tried for months to love you, but it was tearing up my heart.

My heart was working overtime, but my head just couldn’t start.

There seems no point in saying that I love you like a friend,

Because not even I know what my head and heart want in the end.

Or perhaps I do, but I will keep it hidden in my core.

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At least we learn from heartbreak,

Because to love is nothing more.