Hard To Love

I'm really hard to love some days.

That isn't very easy for me to say.

My poor heart is hard to manage.

My pain turned into damaged bits of sadness.

I drown myself in insecurities.

I need to be drenched in security.

My mind is a terrible place to be in.

I try and tell my brain not to spin.

I’m hard to love and that’s not easy to say.

I’m broken and damaged in every single way.

I find solace in my words.

I just want to feel heard.

Every human desires to be loved.

I feel like I’m with an angel sent from up above.

If only my brain didn’t play dangerous tricks.

I wish there was a way that I could be fixed.

My heart is torn up and worn out thin.

My brain is full of woes and sin.

I’m hard to love and I know it too.

It’s not easy to swallow, spit or chew.

I destroy everything I touch.

No matter what I seem to self destruct.

I wish things could be easier for my poor damaged heart.

Sometimes I wish I could just have my brain restart.

I’m hard to love and I know it too.

I wonder if things will begin to change soon.

Chloe Rose Violet