haiku october three

and now it’s sunday

it does happen every week

sometimes it lands hard

. . . [10/15/23]

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but still an off day

still a day to relax, please

and do some own stuff

. . . [10/15/23]

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we make eggs and tea

readying for beach morning

sure love going there

. . . [10/15/23]

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waking up sadly

this cannot go on like this

it will change one day

. . . [10/16/23]

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there, the daily pit

from my stomach to my throat

would like that to stop

. . . [10/16/23]

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my skin comes right off

i pick it like it's paint chips

what am i getting

. . . [10/16/23]

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this is a bad phase

this is every single one

this does not look good

. . . [10/16/23]

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i am careful, yes

but i still miss stuff, oh yes

but i still care, yes

. . . [10/16/23]

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i will go in there

as always, will do my best

try to not let hurt

. . . [10/16/23]

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so take some breaths now

reset yourself for this time

you have done good things

. . . [10/16/23]

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all time must be strange

---------[might]

we are and they are, that's it

and so we adapt

. . . [10/16/23]

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i write what comes out

even if i'm bored by it

because it's something

. . . [10/17/23]

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all is connected

let this thought out and that comes

and and and and and

. . . [10/17/23]

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no curating thoughts

no ruminating either

just allow and see

. . . [10/17/23]

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recognize, accept

investigate then nurture

a practice of RAIN

. . . [10/17/23]

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what say you there birds

do you have a practice to calm

or do you just be

. . . [10/17/23]

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i would love to ask

and sometimes i guess i do

the answers are there

. . . [10/17/23]

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to hear the answers

don't be so sure you know them

save for when you do

. . . [10/17/23]

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he plays and i write

what a sweet way to morning

this is the stuff here

. . . [10/17/23]

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he plays piano

he's said that he doesn't "play"

but i can hear him

. . . [10/17/23]

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i hear live music

i get to hear it daily

what a gift from him

. . . [10/17/23]

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time and cars go by

i think i might prefer time

more interesting

. . . [10/17/23]

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i wanted to say

that really i'm just ok

a lot bothers me

. . . [10/18/23]

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i work to let go

it is a bit exhausting

i wish i just could

. . . [10/18/23]

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i'll go with the good

better than i've ever been

relax and release

. . . [10/18/23]

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how 'bout that breeze now

make sure to give it some time

that makes things better

. . . [10/18/23]

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he's doing well

helps when they catch the bleeding

was his blood, not soul

. . . [10/18/23]

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chainsaws like crying

weep through the canyon loudly

like giants howling

. . . [10/18/23]

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how is there so much

daily chainsaw seems a lot

what is happening

. . . [10/18/23]

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everything seems hard

like too hard or peeps don't care

why do i so much

. . . [10/18/23]

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i try to let go

and then they go and do that

glad i practice breath

. . . [10/18/23]

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we are exhausted

we should all just leave but can't

we're trying for good

. . . [10/18/23]

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so i'll take my lunch

i'll eat my food and drink drink

relax and release

. . . [10/18/23]

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sometimes things just suck

or is that not true - just is

and that's my problem

. . . [10/18/23]

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can it really be

that it's all just perspective

can that really be

. . . [10/18/23]

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i walked right by him

felt like we were in a play

then i walked right out

. . . [10/18/23]

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'don't even want this

'don't even know what to think

but i know i'm here

. . . [10/18/23]

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how many crying

at murder, or traffic or

what has got you,now

. . . [10/18/23]

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it's adding up fast

and that person is yelling

it's probably true

. . . [10/18/23]

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i want to be done

is the obstacle the way

i need to let go

. . . [10/18/23]

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let go but still care?

i'm not sure how to do that

do you know how to?

. . . [10/18/23]

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breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe,

breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe,

breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe

. . . [10/18/23]

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morning, i called out

i just called out furious

but, i'm not that mad

[but i am just sad]

. . . [10/19/23]

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i am part mad though

maybe more uncomf'table

i'll think about that

. . . [10/19/23]

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don't think too much though

that sort of churn isn't good

maybe RAIN* instead

. . . [10/19/23]

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a brown hut bathroom

at the troubador right now

music will be soon

---------------[good]

. . . [10/19/23]

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sleep sometimes to hide

hoping i can disappear

but i don't, so wake.

. . . [10/20/23]

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will you stay or go

to go doesn't seem that good

staying feels better

. . . [10/20/23]

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this is all just talk

just thoughts about how it feels

or how it seems to

------------------[too]

. . . [10/20/23]

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open the window

let in the breeze and the sounds

just look at those hills

. . . [10/20/23]

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they're parked in the streets

cars honking and they don't care

this is living now

. . . [10/21/23]

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but the birds do chirp

and that's better than honking

focusing on that

. . . [10/21/23]

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he's making beach eggs

we'll make good of this wake up

we'll save our morning

. . . [10/21/23]

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it will come out now

the finger crossing is done

hope, let go, or speak

[speak, hope or let go]

. . . [10/21/23]

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also it is sad

we humans and how we live

sometimes it hurts

. . . [10/21/23]

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and that might be it

no more words or drinks or hugs

it might have run out

--------------[worn]

. . . [10/21/23]

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we slowly do change

some parts seem to stay the same

which parts matter more

. . . [10/21/23]

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open with caring

that's always a good start place

that gives all some space

. . . [10/21/23]

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and then there is this

though not "then" but always is

there is the ocean

. . . [10/21/23]

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*RAIN is a buddhist practice (maybe others too?) i learned of from Tara Brach, of awareness (something else? - letting go. acceptance - every bit of the achronym) Recognize, Accept (Allow, Acknowledge - i've heard it more than one way) Investigate, Nurture. this has been a lovely practice to adopt, to practice. i don't always remember it but i am remembering it more.

thank you for reading. i hope you are having good times and some peaceful times in your life. and some fun. i hope you are feeling like you.

-- kory