haiku june, still, yep. of course!

yes, i can do this

this life is weird - but i can

i will, differently

. . . [6/11/23]

. . .

i care from afar

they wouldn't know if you asked

at least i think not

. . . [6/11/23]

. . .

we don't really think

think that our parents will stay

it's strange as they age

. . . [6/11/23]

. . .

from spry to a cane?

it hasn't really been slow

but now it seems fast

. . . [6/11/23]

. . .

it could still be years

but wondering everyday

how is it for them

. . . [6/11/23]

. . .

in the mind of he

is he mad, or sad, or glad

i should just ask him

. . . [6/11/23]

. . .

and of course, how's she

because he got worse faster

don't let her slip by

. . . [6/11/23]

. . .

trying to fix it

trying hard to listen close

juts do now, just do

. . . [6/11/23]

. . .

a lot of inside

but what about what's outside

spend some time there now

. . . [6/11/23]

. . .

i'm found and not lost

i'm fine and never broken

now le'ts get going

. . . [6/11/23]

. . .

wake up my sweetie

or don't - you're in the best place

how cozy it is

. . . [6/12/23]

. . .

we sleep all night long

oh my dog how good is that

oh! that we must wake

. . . [6/12/23]

. . .

and each day we wake

and continue our ideas

trying to get free

. . . [6/12/23]

. . .

here we are again

awake and the birds chirping

did they enjoy sleep

. . . [6/12/23]

. . .

there's not much to say

maybe just a sit is good

and some good deep breaths

. . . [6/12/23]

. . .

i'll sit and i'll eat

i'll have this time to myself

and then i'll go back

. . . [6/12/23]

. . .

some people need help

well, we all need a little

or maybe a lot

. . . [6/12/23]

. . .

i'm scared of what's next

i'm scared because i don't know

i'm making it worse

. . . [6/12/23]

. . .

we will make it out

we'll figure out a good way

or at least a way

. . . [6/13/23]

. . .

maybe it's not hard

maybe that's just how it seems

maybe see anew

. . . [6/13/23]

. . .

he is down asleep

his tea is not steeping yet

i'll start his tea now

. . . [6/13/23]

. . .

enjoy the quiet

hardly any birds chirping

no squirrels are bounding

. . . [6/13/23]

. . .

just sit now, just sit

you'll move enough in a bit

so enjoy it now

. . . [6/12/23]

. . .

trying to get light

i'm trying to lighten up

trying to let go

. . . [6/14/23]

. . .

lost inside myself

maybe been lost the whole time

or, maybe i'm not

. . . [6/14/23]

. . .

sometimes the cy'otes

they howl and sing so loudly

but somehow not now

. . . [6/14/23]

. . .

the dogs talk at night

they talk, they quiet, they talk

and we just love it

. . . [6/14/23]

. . .

magazines and books

those are what fill our night stands

we love read-y time

. . . [6/14/23]

. . .

at desk near window

so glad this window is near

daylight in workshop

. . . [6/15/23]

. . .

garbage trucks coming

they ring in thursday morning

thursday's routine starts

. . . [6/15/23]

. . .

another week close

close to done and then the weekend

working towards balance

. . . [6/15/23]

. . .

this is a practice

for all of us a practice

or is it the thing

. . . [6/15/23]

. . .

we are all breathing

i mean really, for some calm

i know, not just me

. . . [6/15/23]

. . .

all the different calls

the birds of the monring talk

i listen closely

. . . [6/16/23]

. . .

the pallet sits there

been sitting here for 4 months

why do we care so

. . . [6/16/23]

. . .

we see examples

and we try to be like them

and that try can't be

. . . [6/16/23]

. . .

what will friday bring

some relief from a thick week

some space just to be

. . . [6/16/23]

. . .

oh the air feels nice

a light breeze just rest on by

good morning tea sit

. . . [6/16/23]

. . .

one thing leads to more

and more leads to more and more

what are you after?

. . . [6/16/23]

. . .

i could have died then

but i did not, i woke up

i think i'm still here

. . . [6/16/23]

. . .

we are all trying

that's what we all are doing

we try and try and

. . . [6/17/23]

. . .

soon, i'll see them all

most of my whole family

"so long" to dad's house

. . . [6/17/23]

. . .

there are these markers

that mark that the end is near

some different some same

. . . [6/17/23]

. . .

i don't even know

kids say i'm old but i'm young

old but not too old

. . . [6/17/23]

. . .

what is too old then

too old to do what, i guess

it all just depends

. . . [6/17/23]

. . .

i'm sitting, won'dring

and then i stopped for a while

but then i came back

. . . [6/17/23]

. . .

woah! to these words said,

"...a narrative [to] apply ...

discard...as [see] fit"

quoted from a paraphrase of joan didion by timothy denevi in new york times 6/17/23

. . . [6/17/23]

. . .

we try to make sense

all day long we are trying

all our lives is this

. . . [6/17/23]

. . .

and just like that another week of june is done. my family is all getting together soon to bid a sort of farewell to the house i grew up in, the house that has been all of ours for many years, but had been my dad's the most - the longest. 49 years. i don't see them all much, and certainly not as much as they see each other. so that is in there too - anticipation. feelings of why and what's going on.

it's really something what happens in your mind as a haiku comes. the imagery, the parts of a whole. the picking of words and bits to include - the parts to leave out. the words that choose me rather than me choosing the words. it's an interesting process. thing to do. allow.

thanks for reading - take care.

kory