“Goodbye Mama”
I have to block out thoughts of you, all memories and your voice,
So I don’t go insane,
I wish I knew then what I know now; the damage is done, the scars run deep,
The tears pour like torrential rain,
When I was busy waging wars with myself you were nowhere to be found,
At least that’s what I thought at that time in my life,
Not to stop the fight; just to leave me behind,
Tomorrows too late, you’re already gone and I’m no longer the girl you raised,
I said goodbye to you; if you can truly say farewell,
But I cannot make the pain go away,
I ask frequently how can you do this to me?
I will always feel as if there were more I could do; could have done,
Perhaps I’ll leave this tormented place, memories everywhere I look,
Sadness every breath I breathe, nothing left to keep me here,
Tortured thoughts and feelings of restlessness and helplessness,
I hate myself for all the things I didn’t do for you,
With a sad heart I say bye to you and wave as I visit your resting place one last time.
Tahnee Cole ©
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