Finding Joy in the Ordinary
A poem about the adventure of being alive
if you ask me,
what grand adventures I hope for
if you ask me,
how to change the world
if you ask me,
what kind of mountains
I want to climb
what kind of life i want to live
I would say that we all have
undefinable longings
i would say the never ending normalcy
of dirty dishes and shift work
in the day to day space
that is seemingly endless
keeps me stuck in the ordinary
i would say
i don’t know how to change the world
i don’t even know how to pay last months
gas bill
i would say,
i feel it--the yearning for adventure
that sits in the bottom of your
lungs and pulls the breath
in and out
i would say
in the just-another-day space there
are seemingly endless lists of
ordinary to do’s
get the oil changed
return the library books
fix the drafty window
put air in the tires
dig up the weeds in the lawn
(but the yellow ones seem so happy)
finish the presentation for Monday’s class
don’t forget the ringing phone
and the chicken for tomorrow’s lunch--
and it just piles and piles up
so if you ask me
if you ask me
how i manage my longing for adventure
i would fumble a bit
avoid the question
(because joy is in the ordinary, but
how to make you believe me?)
so i would say
i would say that this house is
too chilly in the winter air
and that i'd really just prefer
a really strong cup of coffee
but i'll take the tea all the same
i would say that he never
really told me why he picked
up his things and left
without any words
but i wouldn't understand anyway
i would say that this line is
taking too long--do you really
need to get that five cent
discount on hot dogs?
but it wouldn't accelerate the process
i would say that people
who believe in God
are plagued by severe doubts
that never seem to settle
but i don't need to remember the doubt
i would say that the city lights
remind me of the sunset
that first night we talked about
God and love and second hand smoke
but it wouldn't be make sense
i would say that it's been
great to be here these last three
years and its only been an
experience i will always remember
but i don't think you'd listen to me
i would say that if there was
a reason for anything to
blossom it was because it
was the first time
but you already know that
i would say adventure
is the vague desires that
linger on the lashes of the sleeping
but you won’t stop asking--
where do find my adventure, where is my happiness?
so i’ll tell you the truth.
The truth is
the electric kettle’s not working
but
dancing barefoot on an icy floor
while the dog sniffs breakfast
is an ordinary sweetness
the truth is
I sit here and look at all the people coming in and out
And I wonder at the
miraculous diversity
here in this one place
teeming with hopes and dreams
griefs and losses
And maybe it's ok
maybe, it is ok
if we're not all trying
to change the world
because we're changing
the world right now
with every breath
that these lips expel
because we exist here .
the truth is
its not about changing the world
or chasing happiness
its the stop and go
lights the tug and
ebb and flow
of every day life that
continues to dazzle
it's those minutes
when you feel the pulse
of your own life pressing against
your own skin
and the way the grass whispers against your feet
that make you realize this is what is like to be alive
the truth is
there is joy
found in the quality of silence
between you and me
because life has taught me that if
there is anything left to
believe in it is the light
left behind in the last star
disappearing as the light
steals over the horizon
the truth is
there is something extraordinary
in the intermittent conversations
and the light in your eyes
the kind of possibility that holds the
answer to all the
world’s discontent
and the weight
of your smile is one I will
carry out of this moment
to the next
you and I
me and you
orbiting
closer and closer
anchored by
the fragility of this life
you've shown me
there is movement in this life
that is inexplicably grand , and
the joy is in the little things.
About the Creator
Raine Sillito
Educator, writer, mother.
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