Eighteen, 18 Long Years

Eighteen years of shadows cast long, Each second echoing the melody of wrong. One moment, one slip into darkness’ embrace, Turned a lifetime to ashes, erased my grace.

Anger ignited, a wildfire of pain, Hatred poured down like relentless rain. I became a vessel of fury unchained, In that fateful instant, only rage remained.

The tempest within tore my world apart. Scorching the earth, searing my heart. The love I had known turned cold as stone, I stood in the ruins, broken and alone.

Eighteen years, the price I’ve paid for a moment where light began to fade. I traded my peace for a fleeting blaze. Lost in the inferno, lost in the haze.

Every dawn for eighteen years, has greeted my soul with a torrent of tears. A prison of remorse, a cell of regret, a constant reminder I cannot forget.

I was once a man with dreams so bright, but anger consumed me, stole my light. My hands, once gentle, now tremble with shame. Haunted by whispers that curse my name.

In my darkest hours, I faced my sins, confronting the beast that lived within. The monster that wore my very face, that left behind a barren, desolate space.

Yet today, a new day unfurls its wings, with the soft promise that morning brings. I stand before you, scarred but renewed, with a heart that’s broken, but resolute.

I’ve fought the demons that claw at my mind, struggling to leave the darkness behind. Each step forward, a battle hard-won, in the war against the man I’ve become.

I wear my guilt like a heavy chain, a reminder of loss, a testament to pain. But within my chest, a flicker of hope, a light to guide me, a means to cope.

For eighteen years, I’ve walked this path, shadowed by the echoes of my own wrath. But today I stand, a different man, determined to rebuild, to do all I can.

To those I’ve hurt, whose lives I’ve scarred, know that my heart bears wounds deeply marred. I seek redemption, though it may never come, for the deeds I’ve done, the man I’ve become.

In the silence of night, I hear their cries, the silent pleas, the unanswered whys. They haunt my dreams, they pierce my sleep, their pain, my burden, forever to keep.

I strive to change, to make amends, to show that broken things can mend. But the road is long, and the climb is steep. with every step, my soul to keep.

I’ve learned that anger is a fleeting friend, a destructive force that knows no end. It blinds the heart, it poisons the mind, leaving only devastation behind.

Now I seek the light, the peace I lost, yo find the man who paid such a cost. I look within, where shadows play, fighting to keep the darkness at bay.

Eighteen years, a lifetime spent, in the grasp of sorrow, deeply rent. But today I stand, with a heart that’s true, a man reborn, a soul anew.

I’ll carry my past like a tattered cloak, a symbol of lessons learned and hope. For every scar tells a story of pain, but also of resilience, of strength regained.

In the mirror, I see the man I was, and the man I strive to be because, in every battle fought and every tear.

I’ve found a purpose, a way to steer.

No longer lost in a sea of rage, I turn the corner, I turn the page. With every sunrise, a chance to mend, to fight the demons, to find the end.

Of the path that leads to inner peace, Where the cries of anguish finally cease. For eighteen years may mark my fall, But today I rise, stronger than them all.

Each moment now, a precious gift, A chance to heal, a chance to lift, The burden from my weary soul, To reclaim the life that anger stole.

I’ll walk this path, with steps of grace, Seeking forgiveness, finding my place. In a world that’s bright, where shadows fade, In the light of love, where peace is made.

For eighteen years I’ve lived in pain, But today I stand, ready to regain, The life I lost, the love I knew, With a heart that’s broken, but true.

So here I am, before you now, A man reborn, with a solemn vow, To keep the monster locked away, To fight the darkness, to find my way.

Eighteen years of shadows cast, But today I rise, free at last. With every breath, a chance to be, The man I was always meant to be.

I seek the light, the warmth of grace, To heal the scars that time cannot erase. In the dawn of a new day’s light, I find my way, I find my fight.

For though the past may haunt my dreams, I’ll rise above on hopeful beams. A future bright, a path redeemed, A life renewed, a soul esteemed.

Eighteen years of darkness deep, But today I rise, my promises to keep. With every step, a testament to, The man I was, and the man I grew.