Dust & Ashes

I throw myself down

Surrendered in silence

I have nothing to say

No beautiful or broken words to pray

I cry out the only name

That I know in knowledge

Holds power in this game

Every day, every technique, every word that I speak

Every foolish decision of mine that I accidentally leak

Knocks me off of my feet in sullen defeat

I now understand the ashes and dirt

The tearing of clothes

And weeping in the night

Foolish and futile are my attempts

And I ask myself

Why am I so HELL BENT?!

Reckless words and actions

I use as defense

I'm mad!

I want my way-

And then I get it and say...

This wasn't it! I didn't want this

And throw it back at you like you warranted it