Dreams of an Aphantasiast

i want to be able to see in my mind

i want colours & pictures,

abstract designs

I want to have what others do

the experience of

internal view

for perhaps then I could paint

something unique

without restraint

creating art never before seen

animals and shapes

that have never been

.

I hope we can find a way

A cure for Aphantasia

Some day

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I have had an article in my drafts for a a long time about this. I still haven’t returned to finish it (but I will!). I learned in recent years that I am even less typical than previously thought. I lack the ability to see images in my mind.

The trouble with being unable to do something that others take for granted, is that you never actually learn you are different.

Hence it took me until my 30s to understand that others are able to play their imaginations visually. The subject absolutely fascinates me and I am quite certain that my lack of visual imagination is a trauma response that can be healed (now that I know I’m supposed to be able to do this!).

The fact that I can dream (very vividly) tells me it is clearly possible for me to do this. I just can’t consciously do it.

I would be so interested to know if anyone else here has this ?