decisions
and
repercussions
fuel
my maddening
midnight mind
the dreamless
anti-slumber
and
the tick
t i c k
t
i
c
k
of that
damn clock
all combine
to completely
disarm me
i'm left
floundering
set adrift
questions
with no answers
answers with
no questions
nothing makes
sense
except that
feeling
that horrible
nagging
sense of dread
i've missed
something
said too much
said too little
tried to care
but didn't have
the strength
the weight of
my misdeeds
and shortcomings
should
pull me
d
o
w
n
into
an unrelenting
nightmare
but no...
i lie awake
counting my
failures
instead of sheep
hours pass
like nails on
chalkboard
grating on my s o u l
and when that
loathsome
buzzing fills the air
i snap awake
the dream
inside a dream
wrapped in
a nightmare
dissolving
in the dawning light
and i know
i'll be right back
here again
tonite
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I hate those thoughts that cycle around ! Ugh. Relatable! I put the fan on haha or those megahertz music vibrations from YouTube on my iPad to sleep.. not sure if you know the ones.. or sometimes Michael sealey sleep meditations. Prob should do that again actually so thanks for the reminder. Very unsettled the last few days. Anyhow loved your poem Heather! Have a swell day mate!
I am sooooo far behind on my reading, but I'm here now and WOW, this is GOOD! So relatable and your format just drives it home like a gut punch. Excellent poem, Heather!
No matter what the problem is, the solution is always murder my fear friend! Murder them in poems and stories and live vicarious through them! If that still doesn't help, then maybe you can live vicariously through poems or stories in which the protagonist has the best sleep of their life. I can hear you tell me to shut up, so I'll see myself out 😅 Sending you lots of love and hugs my sweet looney partner! ❤️
Damn, are you and Cathy taking poetry courses. You touched on the lost of moments in our lives due to over thinking or unable to let go. Endless nights wasted on things that trouble us during the day now haunt our dreams. I could be wrong but this is what I felt when I read it.
My past four nights. Last night, in bed by 12:15, still awake at 5 a.m. tossing & turning with thoughts just as you describe.
counting my failures instead of sheep - nope, I do not identify with this line at all, never happens to me in the small hours, totally foreign concept....
Melancholy and exquisite!!! Left some love!!!💕❤️❤️
Beautiful, relatable, and utterly exhausting. Sending hugs and wishes for a peaceful mind.
Man, do I know how you feel
that was really relatable, and well written.