Do Strangers Dream?
Part of: An Effusion Of Strangers Collection of Poetry
we tiptoe through oily reds
carmine-and-crimson-coated bottoms of feet
cautious where they fall
every step precise
we glance back
the unnatural cadence too perfectly spaced
and you look at me
those etheric blues not quipping or wild now
a brimful of considerations i linger at
ochre and tussled raw-sienna brushstrokes
falling into them as light shifts
the rembrandt shadows blown out suddenly
and you say this is not real
i smudge the lines
too neat i say sorry i say
around us colours drip trickle bleed together
the edges of you go first
i fumble to save them
make it worse
you frown and the browns take
the wrinkles around your eyes
i am not fickle i say swept up by beautiful stage faces
damaged troys and driven lorenzos
not so lonely to grasp at strangers
you smile at me
the sadness a vast wave
crashing brown all around us
I am uncomfortably cast out of sleep
awkwardly poured back into this jar of life.
And yet you linger.
The smell of you, linen and 3 a.m. skies,
the rhythm of your voice, raindrops collecting
in still-strange city streets beyond my window.
Do you dream of strangers too?
Are you restless, longing in misshapen places
within yourself?
No. I am awake. Returned to self.
And yet…
Do you vanish into the lines of books,
words carving vaults of collected stories
that call themselves by other names - loss, love, adventure?
Could I talk to you, all at once, about Naipal, Winterson & Marlowe?
Do the things that feed you, destroy you?
What colour is your joy? What flavour, your sorrow?
Can thunderstorms roll you up? Wash you away?
Would you play The Magnetic Fields for your neighbours at 1 a.m.?
Invite them over if they’re dancing in their windows?
Can I slide photographs of strangers into your pockets,
write stories on their backs -
she plants mango trees in backyards that children will know
the taste of sunshine
But for you, I might write chapters -
You are the salted-sea, sound like moonlight in the offing,
eat ice-cream on winter days and
find things you lost in empty rooms.
You have an easy laugh, lit full of brandy
And yet, there’s a shifting ache behind it
or perhaps, I imagine you direr than you are.
That bruised purple of tragedy making us kintsugi.
Do you love people who put themselves back together,
who Humpty-Dumpty their way into things?
Are you pulled by the darkness, trusting its truth?
Do you love the life you’ve made?
Is it easier to forgive others than it is to forgive yourself?
And,
can you forgive me
for stealing some part of you and making it other -
for casting you without your permission?
In this unplanned canvas of a life,
I have painted and repainted.
Layers buried gone unseen
but somewhere between all these brush strokes
are hands that never touch, lives that never arch towards the other;
so many strangers, surrounded by tapestry and sunlight
and you, slivered between vermillion and chartreuse,
sipping rich, hot, coffee in endless silence.
That I have learned to feel less strange in borrowed colours,
that the dreaming is a dappled texture for canvas.
That you, unknowable blue variable,
made of flesh and mortal things like stardust
can dance within the solar systems of a stranger’s mind,
and shift the subtle pewter of a soul.
About the Creator
Tricia Vivienne Blanc
Writer of fantasy, fiction and the occasional brooding poem. Budding photographer. Prolific swimmer (of both water and emotions), willing accomplice, experienced antagonist, flip-flop Jedi, lover of words, forests, dragons and gummies.
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