DEMONS

I used to think that taming your inner demons was a matter of transcending them. I used to believe that the gnawing notion of "not good enough" would be silenced when I was able to move past my mind’s eye because of course, our inner demons do not base their case in reality.

Our inner demons strike us at our sore spots. They recite to us all the things that we fear people will interpret us to be. They keep us stuck in the place where what other people perceive is reality, though of course, those perceptions are extensions of those people, and the ones are ours.

I thought they would dissolve as soon as I stopped looking at my life analytically and started going through the motions as the person experiencing my thoughts and feelings, not the person who is my thoughts and feelings.

But what I came to realize is that every part of you must work in tandem. And as soon as I needed to do something requiring thought and process, I was back to square one.

It's nothing to get over and it's nothing to disregard. It's only something to acknowledge and understand and then cultivate differently. Because mindset is cultivation, and to that end, it is ultimately a choice.

We can change it, If we don't we will remain on the whim of other people's actions and our own irrational gremlins that do nothing but prevent us from living out what we know to be true.

And when these two forces collide and disrupt one another, we'll find ourselves in the pits of anxiety and depression, because something is trying to make its way out of us, and something else is preventing it from doing so.