Dear Mum and Dad, You Broke My Trust

Dear Mum and Dad,

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Now that I’m an adult, fully grown and mature

I firmly believe a parent / child relationship is sacred,

A relationship of love, respect, honour and trust

Beautiful feelings with no room left for hatred.

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When you choose to bring a child into this world

You’re responsible to earn and display these feelings,

But you broke my trust at a very young age

Turning my world upside down and left me reeling.

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I trusted you to love me, to protect me from harm

To see that all my most basic needs were met,

When in sad reality you irreparably broke me

You didn’t protect me as you were the real threat.

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All these years later and I’m still broken inside

That little girl, your daughter, hesitates each day,

Finding it extremely difficult to trust in people

As you only taught me how to take trust away.

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You were the most important relationship of my life

And all you taught me is to hide behind my wall,

If I can’t let you, my parents, into my tender heart

Then it is essential that I keep my world very small.

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Then when I became a mother, a parent myself

I realised that my childhood was not lived in vain,

You actually taught me the greatest lesson of all

How not to parent a child, how not to be inhumane.

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I am honoured to be the loving Mother of two

Raising them in the complete opposite of you,

And as an end result these two precious beings

Taught me it’s okay to love and trust anew.

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Most of my life I was sad and angry with you both

But now I find I’m extremely grateful in a way,

You toughened me up, made sure I was a survivor

Hence why I wrote this piece to finally have my say.

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Thank you Mum and Dad for all the lessons I learnt

You definitely ensured I would be totally independent,

Never relying on another human to meet my needs

So I do apologise for all my years of resentment.

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From these words forward and into the future

I intend to work on being able to forgive you both,

This won’t happen in a day, a week or even a year

It’ll happen as it plays a part in my spiritual growth.

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I will sign out here, my dear Mother and Father

I feel like this unloaded a tonne from my chest,

I love you both but sadly I also don’t like you

Still I happily send you nothing but my very best.

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Your daughter, Colleen

*********************************************************************** I was asked to write a letter in a poetry prompt. Did I know my writing was going to go in this direction? No I did not and I apologise for how dark and heavy this piece is but as you can probably guess, it’s something that has obviously needed to come out for a very long time!

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