Dear Daddy
accept the blame, accept your part
The way that I was raised
Was a blessing and a curse
I wasn’t really praised,
But more often I got cursed
I was told I’d never be anything,
That I’d be just like my mother,
That I never would have anything,
As I watched you beat my brother
You hit him like a man
Even though he was a boy.
Fearful respect you did demand,
As you choked out all our joy.
People think you’re like a saint,
They don’t know the demon you possess…
But you basically have no restraint…
And that’s something you’d never confess.
So many days I wished I were dead,
And I wished that you’d die too.
But every night, you came home instead,
As I cowered up in my room.
As I prayed to God that I didn’t do
Anything that day that was “bad”.
Cause the very last thing I wanted to do
Was to ever make you mad
You flew off the handle about the littlest things…
Like when I got lettuce slime on your shirt.
And even though your backhand did sting,
I was more terrified than hurt.
But one time your backhand hit me
With an awful thud
And you seemed surprised to see
That with it you drew blood
Against my braces my cheek busted
And I stood back up for more
You lowered your hand, and left, “disgusted”
As I dropped down to the floor
Perhaps I just made more mistakes
Than I did accomplishments
And caused you much heartache
When you gave me your judgements
But somewhere along the way
You must have done something right
Cause somehow I turned out okay
In spite of every plight
But I cannot forgive you
And I will not forget
Cause all the things you put us through
Have not healed just quite yet.
Nicholle Michelle 2008
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