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A poem
I wanted this notebook to be
The color yellow.
Why?
I'm not sure.
It's a color that spoke
To me.
/
Yellow as a dead leaf.
Yellow the color of caution.
Yellow.
/
Instead it is white.
White the color of frost.
White as cocaine.
White like a pain-killer
/
I also wanted this
To be a bit larger in size.
But that is life.
We don't get what we want,
Need or deserve.
We get what is thrown
To us.
/
We call ourselves writers.
Why?
I was never too sure
On that either.
/
Everybody has their reasons.
To paint honest pictures -
To have therapy sessions -
To make confessions -
To impress women -
To keep themselves from
Falling into madness -
Because it is all they can do -
Because they see big rewards
Behind it -
Because they feel it.
/
I have no legitimate
Answer as to why I'm
Doing this. Or why
It spoke to me.
/
The lines in this book
Are blue as depression.
The bars between them
Are white as innocence.
The ink which fills in
Is black as corruption.
/
I wanted the cover
To be yellow.
Imagine how this poem
Would've panned out
If it was.
/
How would life be if I
Hadn't made the mistakes
Which shaped today?
What kind of writer would
I be if I received all
I desired?
/
We don't get what we want,
Need or deserved.
We get what is thrown
To us.
Then we take it from there.
I believe that is all
That can be done whether
You're an actor or a
Trashman.
I believe that is all that
Can be done whether you are
A psychic waiting for
A curious soul or a
Hitman waiting on that
Phone call.
/
We get what is thrown
To us.
Be it karma, fate,
Destiny or lifes simple
Pattern of chaos
Coming into form.
Whatever the case.
/
I wanted this notebook
To be the color yellow.
I don't know why that
Color spoke to me but
It did.
For some reason before
I left for work I
Envisioned mizuna as
A corpse. A dead leaf.
/
It inspired me to want
A new book after failing
To write a poem that was
Substantial to me an
Hour before.
I guess I felt it was
Not too late to carry on
With what I felt was
In me
No matter how hopeless
It looked to be.
/
I say "we" call ourselves
Writers because "we'
Means the Ones who
Are like you and myself.
Putting together fictitious
Stories -
Piecing together parts
of our lives -
Making sense or
Making cents.
BeLIEving or lying.
Dead or dying.
/
I'm dying.
That doesn't mean I'm dead.
When I get there I
Get there.
We all get there
Whether as actors,
Trashmen, hitmen, animals or
Writers.
Peace to the true
Psychics who know their
Final minute. I hope
It is not as painful
As you would think.
/
We get what is
Thrown to us.
We will never know
What 'that' is.
We go on from there.
/
We go on from here
To wherever.
/
Wherever
Ever
Takes
Us
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Great poem!