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Comparing
The thing that bothered you most that I did,
You are now the subject of it.
They tell me to go get back out there,
Go on a date,
That it will be great
And even if it isn't, it's a good first step to take.
And even when I do,
The whole time all I can think about is you,
I talk to him, and he seems nice,
Look at him and all I see are your eyes.
Having conversations like I once did with you,
He had different answers and different values.
I wanted the conversation to be easy and flow,
While we sit here with this great view by the patio,
But there was a pause in the conversation current,
Where silence was uncomforting
And it made everything apparent.
I fell for you and now I have a standard,
What a connection-based conversation is like,
And thus, I have my answer.
No matter how good of a person he was,
He was never going to be the person I want,
Because,
He wasn't you,
And when I met you, it was all true,
Easy as can be,
Where I saw you in my life immediately.
I feel like I'm wearing a disguise,
While I'm trying to go on dates with other guys.
Because I am not over you
And who you were through and through.
And how can I be,
The person that I use to see,
Was everything I thought I wanted to be with,
But maybe that was a myth.
Maybe you weren't,
But that's also why it hurts.
Because I believed,
You were,
And now that its achieved
I have an idea of what it's supposed to be.
I can't move on to someone new,
because I’m comparing them to the way I fell for you.
About the Creator
Rilee Arey
I am a professional life romantizer, with a heart that feels everything deeply. I am a moment collector through words and the ways around us.
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