Balm to my Anxiety

Nerves riding high

All I can do is sigh

Tension sets in

Will this binge eating end

Can’t eat

Overeat 

Too much sugar and salt

I’m on a carnival ride that won’t halt

Shaky hands

Avoidance of friends

Hyper-focused 

Or unfocused

There is no in-between

A disposition found in a gene

Lucky if recessive

Sadly, I’m obsessive

I show all the signs

When fate undermines

Keeping us apart

It weighs on my heart

Which causes it all to grow

I know my ducks aren’t in a row

Which is why I have all these hang-ups

Lucky I don’t hide all this worry in the cups

Pacing back and forth

Questioning my worth

Nervous, painful hives on each hand

Diving under the covers, I took all I could stand

I don’t think I’ll be okay

Meds normally keep feelings at bay

But this is a strong feeling of sad and blue

Then suddenly, I’m with you

Your smile lights up my world

Like an angel with his wings unfurled

You swooped into my life

Dispelling all strife

With just a single touch

You calm me so much

Like a parched camel in a desert oasis

My thirst for you becomes this relationship’s basis

In your presence, my mind slows 

As my peacefulness grows

My hyperactive nature is steadied

In this world that feels unsteadied

You bring a serenity to my heart

And keep me from falling apart

Instilling a confident grace

I want a lifetime to keep pace

Forever hopeful that you stay by my side

No longer am I drifting in high tide

I was lost, but now I’m found

Our two souls are bound

Mates found in the stars

Anxiety only fits on Mars