I don’t know how to be me.
My new skin is baggy. It doesn’t fit me. I want to jump out of it and go back to my old skin. I want to go back to the old me.
I have crawled out of the rabbit hole. But now at the top the light is too bright. The space is too open. I had grown strangely fond of the dark and confined space. Can I slip back in without anyone noticing? Can I survive living in the shadows?
My confidence has gone. I don’t how to be…me. I use to laugh. I use to know what to say. Now I bumble. I stumble.
I have been judged and I have been hurt. By those that I called close. I now protect.
I am tired of thinking. I am tired of trying to fit in. How do you make it look easy? How do you glide through life? I watch people evolve. I watch people achieve. But I trip over my own skin.
I know who I use to be. I know what I use to like doing. But that is gone. It is now all different. How do I live in my new ordinary?
About the Creator
Fiona De Stefanis
I've heard that a good writer will share stories about what they know. So this is me sharing my stories, about what I know. I am not sure whether I am a good writer, however this is me just giving a new thing a go in life...
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