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All I fear
Is fear
Itself
Of self
My self
-induced
-destruction
-sabotage
-flagellation
-harm.
Old bad habits
People
We repeat them with
The ones we replace
Replicate
To remind us who we've been
Who we've lost,
or tried to.
Ones we let get in the way
Familiarity is to complacency as apathy is to atrophy
is to entropy which is
≥ codependency which =
fear of coming home,
going out,
picking up;
what happens if we don't.
Broken telephone
Promises
Dishes
Bones
Cycles
Fear of falling towers
& triple edged swords.
Fear of change
Fear of the unknown
Fear of sleep;
of waking
Alone
At all
Or worse,
next to someone else
As someone else
You don't scare me.
Me, my own worst nightmare
Me, who deserves better.
I know you are,
but what am I?
We
Bounce back and stick together
to figure it out
In separate rooms
About the Creator
J
I will not say: do not weep; for not all tears are an evil
Comments (2)
Not me thinking flagellation meant moving using a flagella, lol. I'm so glad I Googled it just to be sure. So I learnt a new word today. Your poem was so poignant and intense. I loved it!
This is such a powerful piece! The use of lists truly helped me feel a sort of anxious spiral of thoughts and made this poem hit hard for me. Thank you for sharing!