Anxiety Attack

Anxiety Attack

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A physiological state,

Not much in my control,

When triggered by the world around,

Sends shrapnel through my soul.

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Trauma has left me terrified,

Scared of my own shadow,

Hypervigilent, and lonely,

Dreading my tomorrows.

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Although sometimes irrational,

It's rooted in my past,

So the fear comes from a real place

To persist and last.

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Not just "beyond my comfort zone,"

But created from a wound.

Asking me to ignore that pain:

Like breathing on the moon.

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So, forgive me if I'm nervous.

I wish it wasn't so.

While I've known posttraumatic growth,

I still have far to go.