Another night has gone!

Am i mentally ill and depressed ?

Or i am just attention seeker at its finest ?

Am i being fake sick and restless ?

Am i too dramatic about sweat on my chest

Is this real fear and anxiety ?

Or am i just dying for some sympathy ?

By crying out in front of people in city

May be i am just trying to escape reality

I dont have answers to these thougts

All i know is i am overthinking a lot !

I am thinking what he two years ago said

Why am i doing this to myself ?

May be i am just fucked in my head

But thinking about past took time i had

Now this can make my future go black

This scares me more and my tears are shed

Now my whole pillow is wet

"why am i like this " i ask my books and bed

But neither of those answer me back

So i begin to feel sad and alone

And i google my feelings on the phone

By wasting time in most creative way ,another night has gone !