Absence of You

Of course, I miss the absence of you,

You were the consumptions of most of my thoughts,

Individually I know who I am,

But without me feeling the obligation of you,

My day on my own feels lost,

And that is what I need,

I need the ability to be free

From the mental obligation of our relationship,

Where I am the variable and you are not the dependent,

I need to feel like my own person outside of us,

Outside of you,

You are all consuming,

With your constant presuming,

Of the things I say,

You take so much the wrong way,

And you wear me out,

The source of most of my doubt,

Stems from your reactions,

From our daily infractions with each other,

So of course, I feel the lack of your mental hover,

Because my days are no longer dependent on you,

My body may feel the absence of something it grew to knew,

That doesn’t change for me what is true,

Even if I miss the presence of you,

There’s no way to go back, just push though!