About A Girl
A single smile in my direction
and the words
“it’s because you’re pretty”
and I’m hooked
hooked like a caught fish
stuck with my mouth gaping
arms flailing
eyes wide
my mouth,
unable to form words
face blossoming into a tomato,
I flee.
Pounding in my chest
my face numb,
and then
a flash of a smile
behind clenched eyes
Breathe in.
Breathe out.
This overwhelming feeling,
panic,
has my feet rooted in place,
my hand gripping my chest.
It’s too much.
I can’t feel this way,
not about you.
Not about a girl.
But fuck,
that smile won’t leave me alone.
Days pass,
and I dream
about holding you in my arms,
and waking up to that beautiful smile
I can picture us easily,
Hands clasped by the water,
kissing under the blanket of stars
smiles hidden behind inside jokes
We feel effortless.
A bucket of ice water
is dumped on my thoughts,
and the image reel
comes to a halt
There is fear
of losing my family,
of losing my friends.
Is that worse
than losing you?
But then I remember,
that smile on our first day,
the smile that took my breath,
and brought a blush to my cheeks
and set a million butterflies free throughout my body
And I know then,
there are a lot of things
I can live without
but your smile
is not one of them.
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