A Trip Through Hell

I could have done a lot worse,

I could have gave into this curse.

As numb and hollow became my norm,

I began to accept this form.

On the outside who would even suspect,

all the secrets that I've kept..

After so long, I had to speak out loud,

I didn't need a podium or crowd..

I only needed someone I could confide in,

I needed to release my bourdons to begin..

Do you know how long I waited?

Just to be shaded..

I guess I never even got started,

before I became so guarded.

If you only knew, you would say "of course you did,"

you were only just a kid..

But alas, here I am becoming free of this prison you put me in,

finally feeling comfortable in my own skin.

I didn't need to confide in anyone, especially you,

my hatred only grew.

You buried what happened to keep you sane,

I was left to carry this bourdon, I wore the chain.

I grieved what should have been mine,

all the lost time..

What I needed was to get right with my soul..

get back what you stole.

Now I can live my life in peace,

The war in my mind has ceased.

Because I know my truth and I know it well,

It is I who survived a trip through hell.