Innocence Robbed

I had no idea.

Now I know..

To be honest, I wouldn't go back to not knowing even if I could.

It is here I leave my grief,

I am done with my happiness being brief.

Oh how I have lived my life in such agony within,

as I waited for you to make amends..

How silly of me to believe in you,

You took my innocence and part of my soul too.

It's not how I wanted to leave,

For so long, all I did was believe.

That I could wish this pain away and start anew,

No. That's not how my wisdom grew.

I guess it is how it began,

It is true, I had to walk before I ran.

I have been alone for too long,

In a constant state of feeling wronged.

I wanted the world to know what you had done,

I couldn't stand the idea that you had won.

This frustration surrounded me,

blinded me, I couldn't see..

I couldn't, I couldn't, I couldn't.

So I didn't.

I stopped fueling this rage you started inside,

all the tears I sat alone and cried..

I saw the person I buried before she could begin,

and it was ME who started to win.

I don't have to scream and shout and make it known,

I've realized they like my frown..

That they can never understand,

I'm just lucky I could withstand..

Because now here I am knowing,

It is my peace that is finally growing.