The day you left I could still so vividly hear your voice bouncing around my head
The thought of you continues to be an echoed shout that never ends
I want to scream some days, let loose, let the bad times in,
I want to give up sometimes and let those bad times win
But these days I must remember to pat my own back
And remind myself that what you did, while it may have been unintentional,
What you did changed the world
And as I try not to let the guilt consume my soul
I remember that you too had goals,
And you too had demons that wore down your soul
And that golden light that you shine for me, the one displaying the truest parts of your beauty
Lives on, stronger, brighter, and more apparent than ever
Because the pain that you carried for 22 years, please know
I carried it too
The trauma you faced,
The addictions you dealt with,
The guilt you felt,
The loneliness,
The fear,
And the wonder,
I felt it too
I saw it too
And I knew it just as well
This is why we were always so close,
Brother and sister,
Best friends til the end
Well I am here as living, breathing proof,
That what was once started must commence till its own end
And your friendship and strength
Must double in space
And I must allow that in
So in an effort to honor you,
Remember your goals,
And to make them come true,
I must choose not let those demons win
I was always too afraid of what would happen anyways,
If I’d followed our parents examples, and let the poison help them swim
Who knows if I’d ever have the strength to beat the demons again
And I know you worried this too,
But for you, there wasn’t enough time to choose
By the time the drugs stole your human consciousness
Your soul was already shedding its demons off
And lighting up the world from a higher dimension
And as the pain taps against my gut,
Rhythmically I hear that echoed voice again
I hear your name, and beg for your face
In this humanistic place
Just one more day
So I can show you, that the universe took the bad away
And it made you whole again
And those demons, even if you cannot see it
They did not win
About the Creator
Devin Anna
Writer, Artist, Animal Advocate, Nature Lover, Healer, Healing, and creating Wholeness with every word. Energy and frequency are how I communicate first and foremost, writing is the translation I use to share this energy with the world.
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