A Risk I Am Ready to Take

Hello,

Can you hear me tho,

Can you read this tho,

Are you okay tho, I've been calling,

I've been texting you, to make sure you okay.

I know it is hard to see me right now but believe me you will soon realize that I did this for us,

It is okay to hate me, It is okay not to talk to me,

But I want you to know that this was the only way of not hurting myself in the process and the only way you could heal and move on,

It has been a rough journey and we have changed along the way too,

Maybe changed too much, I did this so that we could realize that we were not surviving, but we were drowning,

And that is not just right!!!!

I can forgive you for hurting me, and I pray that you do the same,

Letting you go was hard because I woke up each day to realize that,

You were not mine anymore, I couldn't call you, I couldn't complain to you, I couldn't sit to talk to you about my bad and good days, I couldn't rely on you to make me laugh so hard until my stomach hurts and tears comes rushing out of my eyes, I was exposed without you to make me feel safe,

But I am good tho, why

Because I know that you're happy with some else,

You're probably making jokes about me and she laughing so hard that she cries just like I did,

You're making her feel safe to be with you like I did,

You're sticking around even when she pushes you away,

You love her unconditional, and that makes me happy,

You are becoming a better you, you're healing, you're moving on and that makes me feel less guilty about letting you go...

You were my one risk and I did take the chance and to let you go was the risk I was ready to take and I have no regrets.