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A Bittersweet Victory

The hard truth of Heaven’s Curtain

By Cathy holmesPublished 18 days ago Updated 18 days ago 1 min read
Top Story - November 2023
photo by Sasha Freemind on Unsplash

I’ll take the prize.

I’ll take the accolades,

and I’ll take the congratulatory messages from fellow creators and friends.

But I’ll take it all with a tear in my eye,

and a pang of guilt in my soul.

And I’d give it back in a heartbeat

to have never had a reason to write it,

and for your stilled heart to beat again.


Thank you to Vocal for choosing me as a finalist in the haiku category of the Vocal awards, and extra special thanks to my fellow creators for voting “Heaven’s Curtain” in 2nd place. I am truly grateful for your support, and I want you all to know how much I appreciate you.

I realize the short poem above is not exactly brimming with positivity. The truth is, I have a love/hate relationship with Heaven’s Curtain. While I am proud of the acknowledgment the piece has afforded me, I mean every word I wrote above. I’m also aware that there are probably hundreds of other Vocal creators who have written pieces they wish they never had a reason to write, and I empathize.

Once again, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Finally, for those who are not aware (though most who follow me are), Heaven’s Curtain was taken from a longer poem I wrote two years ago while standing on my balcony looking at the moon. Here is the link, if you’d like to see it.

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Cathy holmes

Canadian family girl with a recently discovered love for writing. Other loves include animals and sports.

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  • Naveed12 days ago

    Excellent effort! Keep up the superb work—congrats!s

  • Rana Shafiq13 days ago

    I empathize with you, my friend. It's tough when our writings stem from challenging experiences. Your special piece truly deserves the acknowledgment. And kudos on the win and being featured as the Top Story! Your heartfelt poem adds a beautiful touch. Well done!

  • Kendall Defoe 14 days ago


  • Paul Stewart14 days ago

    Ach, my heart. Buddy, I feel for you...for different reasons there's lots I've written I'd rather not had the experiences to write them. This was a speccial piece and I'm glad you got the acknowledgement (oh, for giggles...you would not believe how many times I tried to type that word). Also love this little heartfelt poem too! Well done on the win, again and on Top Story!

  • Dana Stewart14 days ago

    I'm sorry you had to write it but your love bleeds through the verses. Truly beautiful work. Congrats on the well deserved win and acknowledgement!

  • Cheers!! Congrats on another great win!!

  • Grz Colm14 days ago


  • Back to say congratulations for your Top Story!

  • E.K. Daniels14 days ago

    Cathy, I felt this…. I remember reading your haiku a while ago and feeling a pang in my heart. I recently won an accolade for a poem of mine that was published in a book and on a wall in a former university. We had the unveiling tonight. It was about my Dad’s cancer diagnosis. I had a similar thought. I would have traded everything for his health. I don’t want to make this about me, but wanted to share that I understand where you’re coming from. I hope writing it has brought you some solace, and the fact that it resonated with so many, has helped you to know you are not alone. Sending you lots of love. <3

  • Donna Fox (HKB)14 days ago

    Im sorry you have a reason for these pieces but they are so beautiful and heartfelt! I think your pain has really pushed your talent to blossom, the world would be a lot less beautiful without your work in it! 💚

  • Rene Peters15 days ago

    I understand that feeling as well. I'm glad you wore it though! Congrats on top story too!

  • Donna Renee15 days ago

    I definitely understand why you feel this way. ❤️❤️❤️. I’m glad that you wrote it and shared it with us!

  • Mr Ahsan15 days ago

    Sweetest story ever 😍. Congratulations on your top story. Send blessing

  • I love your very beautiful poetry and your truly sweet and kind ways, you deserve the best and I appreciate your always wonderful thoughts and support. Congratulations on your well deserved recognition 💓🥰☺️👌👏

  • River Joy15 days ago

    This is a beautifully introspective. Well done and congrats even if it's bitter sweet it's deserved.

  • Jackson Gitau15 days ago

    Real heart sharing moment. Heartily encouraging. Good piece.

  • Real Poetic15 days ago

    Back to say CONGRATS!!🎉 💕

  • Daphsam17 days ago

    Hang in there. 🙏Congratulations on to story.

  • Tiffany Gordon 17 days ago

    My heart hurts for you ever having to write it but I'm so happy that your beautiful beautiful piece placed. Congratulations, it is very well deserved my friend!!

  • I'm sorry Cathy. I understand that you wish you never had the reason to write that. Bittersweet victory indeed. Sending you lots of love and hugs! 🥺❤️

  • Prayers & blessings, Cathy.

  • Real Poetic18 days ago

    Lovely poem and congratulations on being a finalist! Your haiku is stunning. 🩵

  • Mark Gagnon18 days ago

    We all write about many things for many reasons. In the end, it's all about expressing your feelings and being able to share them. Congratulations!

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  • JBaz18 days ago

    Sometimes this is how we deal with the pain, think about others who have no release. You turned it into a thing of beauty, and let us share in your sorrow. Cathy, This is one of the best "thank you" messages anyone has written.

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