Tonight’s Googled, Reading List.

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Tonight’s Googled, Reading List.

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How do I become more realistic?

How do I give up my dreams?

How can you live without being creative?

How can I stop being creative?

How do I let go of a dream?

How do I grow up?

How do I stop hoping?

How do I get rid of the light in my soul?

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Results so far.

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How do I become more realistic?

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https://learnthis.ca/2011/11/17-ways-to-be-more-realistic/

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https://www.quora.com/How-does-one-become-more-realistic-in-life

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https://www.chabad.org/theJewishWoman/article_cdo/aid/3016208/jewish/I-Dream-Big-How-Can-I-be-More-Realistic.htm

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How do I give up my dreams?

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https://tinybuddha.com/blog/10-questions-to-ask-yourself-before-giving-up-on-your-dream/

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https://theeverygirl.com/5-signs-it-is-okay-to-give-up-on-a-dream/

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https://www.inc.com/nicolas-cole/15-sad-reasons-people-give-up-on-their-dreams.html

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How can you live without being creative?

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https://www.quora.com/Can-a-human-being-live-without-creativity

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https://gerhardhuhn.de/engl-it-is-necessary-to-protect-creativity

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How can I stop being creative?

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https://www.creativitypost.com/article/21_ways_to_kill_your_creativity

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https://medium.com/self-starter/stop-being-creative-e6fd6a8712c6

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https://www.quora.com/Can-people-stop-being-creative-at-a-certain-point-in-life-or-were-they-never-creative-to-begin-with

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How do I let go of a dream?

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https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/the-plan-b-life/201107/letting-go-the-dream

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https://thriveglobal.com/stories/5-ways-to-let-go-of-a-dream/

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https://www.psychreg.org/let-go-dreams-become-happy/

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https://consent.yahoo.com/v2/collectConsent?sessionId=3_cc-session_3b6307ea-94bb-4f79-ab91-5b12fd2b0263

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https://thoughtcatalog.com/jan-zapanta/2016/06/read-this-when-you-need-to-let-go-of-a-dream/

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How do I grow up?

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https://markmanson.net/how-to-grow-up

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https://www.wikihow.com/Grow-Up-and-Get-a-Life

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How do I stop hoping?

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https://tinybuddha.com/quotes/tiny-wisdom-when-its-time-to-give-up-hope/

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https://www.quora.com/How-do-you-stop-hoping-for-something-you-know-will-never-happen

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https://en.psychologyinstructor.com/lets-stop-hoping-for-things-that-will-never-happen/

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https://innerself.com/content/personal/attitudes-transformed/forgiveness/13057-giving-up-all-hope.html

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How do I get rid of the light in my soul?

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https://www.quora.com/Is-there-any-way-I-can-destroy-my-soul-so-that-I-dont-reincarnate-1

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https://www.quora.com/How-can-I-kill-my-soul

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https://www.caseytygrett.com/blog/2011/05/17/10-helpful-ways-to-destroy-your-soul

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https://uk.answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20100114092142AAHonFr

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I need answers,

Because my wife and kids are neither a valid enough nor a good enough reason to keep going for…

And they might never be…

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DEAR 13-Year-old Self!

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DO NOT BOTHER TO LEARN HOW TO READ!

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In the long run, getting an education will only cause you pain!

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It will only give you unachievable ambitions that will break your heart and mind!

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Instead, Take Drugs, Commit Crime and die happier at 25 (ish ) instead!

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Yours

Your 48-year-old self!

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I have a BA in print media and I have worked for as little as 1p a word because I needed the cash some months.

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My only way of getting work when I was on Fivver, sometimes, is by ruthlessly undercutting those unlucky enough to be working further south where everything is far more expensive!

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The value of a lot of (but not all) further education is a sick joke!

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Sometimes I just wish that I could send a letter back in time to my 13-year-old self! ......

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I have never been closer to giving up writing and art for just being a just fat full-time TV couch potatoes instead,

Then I have today.

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There seems to be no market for me,

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Anywhere...

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I am truly losing hope and faith in any abilities I may have thought I had.

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Am I defeated?

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