healing
How to heal fully and properly.
Stuck
I’ve felt stuck for a long time. Caught in the middle of a sociocultural tug-of-war. On one side there is “good,” it being conservative, righteous, obedient, godly. On the other side: rebel, liberal, “inactive,” unrighteous, “bad.” I have never been able to fit either mold completely and so I’ve felt completely and utterly isolated.
By J H6 years ago in Motivation
The Black Swan
Every Wednesday my grandparents pick me up from school and take me to a lake where we feed the ducks together, before going to the resident coffee shop to have two espressos and a hot chocolate. Today is a Wednesday and I quickly rub some sunscreen over my pale skin as I see the turn left sign for our destination. I like watching my grandfather while he drives, I like watching the smile he shares with my grandmother from time to time and the funny faces he pulls for me through his front mirror. I like watching my grandmother sing along to whatever retro countdown is playing on the radio, although, for the majority of the time I’m unsure of whether or not it’s real music as I can never hear the instruments. Sometimes I sing along too, as the words are catchy and it’s fun to sing with her.
By Virag Dombay6 years ago in Motivation
Loving Yourself Is Hard
The struggle started when I was eight years old. I remember looking at my parents and asking them if I was "fat." At eight years old, no little girl should even know what fat means, but I did. I wasn't fat, and I wasn't even chubby, but the little girl I was looked in the mirror and saw an extra 50 pounds on her body. I thought this was normal. Little did I know, this was merely the beginning. Fast forward on to middle school. My parents had divorced and so we moved from my hometown just outside of Cincinnati, Ohio to a small place called Clay County, Kentucky. This, in a sense, was the beginning of the large-scaled problems I had, and still have to deal with today. This middle school was different than other school I had been to. It was a small school, probably no more than 200 kids at the most, and this meant that everyone who went there knew each other. This made it very difficult for me as an incoming seventh grader to make friends. Everyone knows nowadays that kids can be really cruel, and I can vouch for that saying. I was a very short, small girl in middle school, and many people took advantage of that. I was pushed into lockers and told to go back to where I came from. I was bullied by boys that were bigger than me, was called a prude and a “city slicker,” and never really felt like I fit in. This gave way for my self-hate to sneak its way back into my life. Since then, I have continued to struggle with loving myself and accepting myself the way I am. It lead the way for my eating disorder to begin, and my life got really dark, but that is another story. Today, I am a freshman in college at the university of Kentucky, and I’m a major in Elementary Education. My goal for this year has been to learn how to love myself, and although I haven’t quite accomplished that yet, I am still working on it. Everyone is unique in their own way, and that’s okay! Being you is really the only option, because being someone else will only make you a clone. You are amazing just as you are, and when you realize that, a whole new sense of happiness will engulf your soul.
By Makenzie Hicks6 years ago in Motivation
Do Not Sink, Start Swimming
Depression is no laughing matter. Personally speaking, I have had my fair share of depressed days, rage out moments, and times where I felt my world was coming to an end. Life is what you make of it, so what do you do when you feel like life has no meaning? You make lemonade, what I mean is that you get up and you do not just pop a pill and think that your bad day or life for that matter will just disappear. Get up and get moving. Push yourself to work out, find a hobby to do, get with a support group if you do not have family that will be understanding. Go to therapy not just to see a psychiatrist but an actual therapist. When life gives you lemons you make lemonade. Get up, throw away the shackles of the pity party you are throwing for yourself and look in the mirror and say I am stronger than the problems that I am facing. My life has to mean something greater than what I can only see. My purpose may be unknown to me right now but I will find it as I keep involving myself in positive things, skill sets, and align myself with good people. The saying that you are who you hang around is so true. I have had some bad people I used to call friends in my life and they took from me until I felt like I had nothing left to myself. I got to the point where I cut off so many people I was the only person left in my circle. I felt paranoid like trusting people was something very difficult to do even though I had done it so many times in the past with ease. I had felt like I was spent and I could not give any more compassion from my heart.
By Stanley Odujole6 years ago in Motivation
How To Not Let Life Get You Down
We've all had our fair share of ups and downs. There are days when everything goes just the way you want it to, and on others, it seems as though the world has turned everything against you. And if I asked you which one of those relates to your everyday, what would you say? If the first part pertains to you more, then you most likely don't need to hear what I have to say, but if it's the second part and life is definitely not giving you lemons, then please stay tuned for what I have to say.
By Kennadie Warren6 years ago in Motivation
The Joys of Giving Up
Rewind to about a year ago. If you asked me where I'd be in 5 years, I'd tell you I'd be cruising down the PCH in my long-coveted 1986 Lamborghini Countach, windows down, blasting Def Leppard or Van Halen or some heavy metal crap, headed to my bitchin' mid-century modern home located somewhere with an enviously-posh ZIP code. All my money came from some ingenious, world-changing idea I came up with, which I make loads of money on without getting name recognition from it (last thing I want is people following me around or badgering me). I have a horse, at least one dog, and a partner I am madly in love with. Oh boy, am I living the life.
By C.G. Remmet6 years ago in Motivation
Exposing Myself
I’m in a 10 day self development workshop. The goal of this workshop is to explore my shadow and integrate with my rejected aspects of self, eventually coming to a place of full acceptance and love. That means owning everything I'm ashamed of that I bury deep down inside hoping no one will ever find out. All these aspects stem back to one thing and one thing only: fear. The things I judge about you are the things I have rejected within myself, and as I start to accept myself fully, I can accept you. As I've explored these aspects, I’ve been faced with many challenges. One is admitting they exist, and shedding light on them since I’ve tucked them away in the deepest parts of myself. They are things that I truly believe, then hide away neglecting their need to be accepted, resulting in self sabotage and victimization. But today will be different. Today I will expose the ugliest parts of myself, in turn exposing them for what they really are; FEAR,false evidence appearing real. Facing my fear and exposing them to you will take away all their power over me. Everyday you have a choice, love or fear. Today I choose love.
By summer sheehan6 years ago in Motivation
Growing, Growing, Growing
Enjoy! Growing, Growing, Growing... As human beings we are all given the privilege to grow. I don’t mean this in a physical sense but more so in a spiritual sense. I think everyone has to grow and create the person that they desire to be. We all have to overcome obstacles, different people, and getting lost in the world we live in to truly figure out who we are and determine our sole purpose.
By Tate6 years ago in Motivation
An Open Letter to My Friend Who Thinks She's Not Enough
It broke my heart to hear you say, “I just don't think I'm pretty enough.” I wish you could see the world through my eyes, because when I look at you, I see strength, and perseverance. I see an independent woman who has been hurt, but who has grown. I see a woman that has overcome more obstacles than any stranger walking down the street could ever know. Do you realize the value that you carry with you?
By Barbara Spoor6 years ago in Motivation