New year, new me...and all that.

I ended 2020 as many of us did; bewildered by the world of today, terrified for what the future months hold and downright exhausted.

January 2021 hit and something flipped inside me. I suddenly knew what I wanted to be when I grow up...and it wasn't what I was looking at in the mirror.

January 5th 2021. The start of new beginnings. I quit my corporate 9-5 (and all the other hours) job and it felt great. The happenings in the world over the last year had taken its toll on me, I felt at an all time low and struggled to find a reason to get out of bed in the morning. I hated the sloth I had become. So there I was, sat in front of my boss. I'd like to say I was brave and intentional... but I was a blubbering mess, snotting all over my mask. Still, I knew I was doing the right thing and handed in my notice.

Did I have anything to move on to? No. Did I have any money to get by until I did? No. Was I scared? Not even a little bit. nfortunately for us millenials, we have grown up in a society that tells us we need to have the highest paid job, the nicest car, be on the property ladder before 30... so much pressure! But I felt nothing but relief that I could now breathe and figure out exactly who I want to be in 2021.

I have now accepted a part time job which is giving me the perfect opportunity to get creative. I have bought a pottery wheel (never done pottery in my life) but I am sre as hell going to give it my best shot.

I have never felt more content in my life. No corporate pressure, just valuable time to be who I want to be and not who I am told to be.

So I guess this is my list of resolutions for the best year yet (I hope). Feel free to use these as your own and let me know how you get on!

- Be myself. Nobody can do me like I can.

- Stress less. I have just completed a diploma in meditation teaching, it is time to put it into practice.

- I am allowed to say no. Unfortunately, I have grown up in a household where saing "no" was not appreciated. This has followed me into later life and I have always struggled to just tell people I don't want to do something because I don't want to disappoint them. I have now realised that their reaction is their problem and not mine. If I want to stay in bed and chill, I will.

- Stop comparing myself to others and their success. If you have bought a house by the age of 25, congrats! You should be really proud of yourself! I have not and I need to be ok with that, and I need society to be ok with that! If you ask a 25 year old woman why she doesn't have a house yet, why she is not married yet and if she is having children soon- you are rude and need to mind your own.

After writing all of this, I am actually super excited for the year, lockdown or no lockdown. I am going to make the most of every second, relax and relive the pressure I have put on myself for the last 10 years. I am healthy and I am happy and that is good enough for me.

Happy 2021 guys!

With love, Faye x