My Gratitude for 2021

2020 and 2021 have been unprecedented years and something that brought forward challenges for almost all of us. So many people lost their lives, couldn't see their loved ones, spent days in isolation but most importantly, came together to fight the virus as one. It won't be entirely wrong to say that the years 2020 and 2021 has been a testing one in many different ways

I still can't digest the facts of 2021, the year is about to end. 2021 is an intense year like the previous one, maybe the worst for some people. I started this year with a lot of plans and positivity but later everything was ruined. This year too forced me to wear a mask, instead of lipstick, a mask took place. Not only wearing masks has become mandatory but also it became part of life fashion. What a year, full of uncertainty, anxiety, and panic...

But I am happy I am alive, I am happy that I am healthy. I was under stress and due to the pandemic situation, I was worried and took proper precautions to avoid infection...

I took a lot of intense decisions about my life this year, in fact, I went out during the pandemic just because of solving so many problems. My life was unstoppable, so no matter what was going on, I had to move on.

I was not so sure about my journey in Uk when Corona started. My family away from me, no support, financial crisis, no job everything just put a question "Will I survive"? What is next? I am not a weak person but I become weak sometimes. I don't show, I rarely talk but I write, a lot of words, untold stories. My entire journey, survival level nobody knows, not even my dad. I don't know how many nights I have spent without sleep. My stress level was high and every day after leaving my bed, I used to think should I give up? Maybe this is the end...

Adopting lucy was one of the crucial decisions for me, I was not sure whether I am going to be able to raise a dog properly or not. I was in dilemma about money crisis too, budget life, and my concern was extra expenses. But later I decided that my mental condition improvement should be the first priority and Gigi will be my companion. Instead of focusing on financial crises, I focus on my health and mental satisfaction.

I have haters, yes I have, a few... They did everything to make my life miserable, hell and pushed me hard to feel ashamed of myself. Yes, haters will hate and they will never stop bullying us as long as we give attention to them.

Despite having so much this year, I am grateful that I am still alive, doing great, living my life fully with Gigi. I met good people also those who inspired me and helped me to keep me alive...

If you are thinking about what you lack, you’ll continue to produce outcomes to match it. To turn this around, you must start thinking and feeling the great abundance you already possess. This attitude, mindset, and energy will now attract more of itself into your life. Your external life will mirror your internal one.

Look over the many blessings in your life and you’ll be able to turn toward the future with arms wide open—ready and willing to receive all of the blessings yet to come.

Still, a month left to end this year. But I am grateful for having such a great life this year...