Hurry Up & Wait!

To your overall collectiveness,

You will be the reason you fail yourself. You will be the reason you impress yourself. Don’t concentrate too hard on the negative. Remember what I said in previous letters? Your focus is your destination. Did you pick the right path?

Do my letters even follow a path? Did you utilize the knowledge in the manner you required, or, did you only notice what you were familiar with? When you questioned our intentions was it confusing or intriguing? Maybe it was passive, you don't want the disturbance of being fully at fault for yourself. But you might be even if unconsciously acting.

What did you intend to do with the known and unknown knowledge in those condensed analogies? How do you evaluate this, the progress? Well, can you measure it? But measuring over a vast amount of time takes dedication, consistency and execution. If I told you that it takes 21 days to adjust, can you prove to yourself that you could obey yourself? How’s that workout routine? Your pledge for a new diet? A new persona to adapt? What have you told yourself lately? A task or duty, have you stuck to it? How often do you listen? How well? The inability to stick to a definite narrative is a bitch ain’t it?

Speaking of narratives, is yours rational? How far in advance can you contemplate? What’s your philosophy? What’s your purpose? What’s your message? Are you the legacy, part of it or unaware of it? Am I rushing you or are you running off track? Who controls when and where you run?

Are you free to roam or has Sparky knocked the Spunk out of you?

I never spoke about how critical sunshine is for your internal light. I mentioned diet earlier, they don’t teach you more than what they find advisable. To know about your own health nowadays and how to naturally aid it seems- devilish. I mean, they (who is "they", you may be asking. Well, that’s for you to answer. Who do you look up to?) are like you too.

Obviously they have figured something out that you didn’t. Do you actually care to excavate deeper or do you throw your willingness into the air? What’s vitality to you? Analyze this; Do you know that they only account for themselves since, basically, that's whom they embody. Themselves. Why you do more of this? They won’t save or repair you. Pay attention to yourself. Don’t throw away your wealth of self for that which is without.

That’s all you get. By now you should be able to deconstruct and evaluate even the simplest of nudging advice. That’s what this is all about you know. Work for your nourishment. Did you think we got here with a passive instinct to survive? Survival of the fittest, not the skittish.

When we first started conversing , when you were influenced to encourage a dialog with the voice who narrates, I claimed that you're at your loudest when its trivial. Maybe enraging. (Why do you think I started with poking some easily accessible buttons?)

What’s your attraction to distraction sensations? Why are you so capable of enticing yourself to blindly cooperate with your misty shadow?

If you came to understand your obsidian silhouette, then you would rid the temptation a little easier. I mean, you can even detect others shade once you find that yours exist to its extent. You’re probably like, “Easier said than done.” Or “What the hell does that even mean?” Just from one of those responses I would have a rough estimate of how collected you are.

I addressed these letters to you, the arrangement of yourself right now. Read the addressing line if you think I’m kidding.

What are you facilitating? Is your growth blooming? I don’t want you to get the wrong idea. Don’t, I repeat, DON’T think that this rhetorical conversation is the ending point. I’m just air in the carburetor. I’ve made plenty of fuel comparatives, put the pieces together.

Roots dominate the darkness; you just have to water them. Think about that real quick.

Stay where you are if you notice that you’re straying. That may be the wrong fox hole. Resurfacing goes against gravity. It will be a challenge.

What a task it was to get this far. I tried to quench your thirst with information (presented, unknown, questionable and relative. There’s way more data out there, experience that as well.). I can’t make you take a sip, but sip. Lessons like this push you to scavenge for sustenance. The rumpling of flags in the winds. Signs are yours to read or feel. There is a gift for your vulnerability and even some damn tactics to drive you to implosion. Take that as expansively as possible. You want to explode, metaphorically speaking.

Do you realize there’s silence before the boom? (Seriously, watch an action movie. As an explosion winds up, they drown out every surrounding sound. Excluding important dialogue which usually is just a singular noun. Maybe a verb.) A calm before the storm, red morning skies and so on. There’s no set of privileges or circumstances that exclude you from the trials and tribulations of living. The accusations are just embodied differently. They can be felt from different victims with similarities in its debilitation.

Now that sounds crazy right? What’s crazy if not just misunderstood? What’s blindness but closed eyes? Accept this as a fate of (wo)man. If you were absolutely alone and uncompromised by another person you would still be inflicted. Why are you not to blame? If it’s their fault, right? Who or whatever they are, this is, that means, where this goes. See the chain affect yet? Break the link. You always have a chance to improve.

Are you in the chain of commands or commanding the chain?

But who am I? The most known expressed form of myself is referred to as my personality.

Who am I when I’m alone? Is that the real me? Who do I show to the world? What does it mean to not act like myself? Do you know what (who) you really are anyways?

I’ve been thinking a lot about how we defend ourselves from anything that hinders our immediate security of being. What do I mean by that? Pass.

The one point I want to inflate about that thought bubble would be the shield we hold blindly in front of us. That protective veil blocks your vision of the flowerings. It’s okay to let your guard down every now and then. This is how I will leave this point in my (re)circulation. On the highest note I can. Here we go;

This is for you.

There’s never a better time to remember that love is also a power. That you’re capable of love. That love is for you. For us. For them. Forever.

One day, one day at a time, it’ll make sense. It’s a cycle. A revolution. I welcome your return.

I’ll see you on the other side.

PS: Repetition is needed.

PPS: I know you’ll make it out.

PPPS: This isn’t the end. You will know the end when the end arrives. Don’t spend all your “free” time frozen in the headlights of life. That impact is both mental and psychical. How do you react in the face of destruction? Disregard my last analogy. Mindfully acknowledge fallacies? It’s a question since your default intensions will see this notion as only optional. Hurry Up & Wait!- for that emergence from your shell. The light feels invigorating.

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Sincerely, Jahvon.