Challenging myself

Yes, sometimes I’m a bit egocentric — or way too many times — I seem to write better while talking about my experiences.

I love to write, especially about traveling, I have 1001 ideas running on my mind that I seem to be unable to translate to the written word. — I had a therapy session where we discussed the fact that the way my mind works is not the best way to a creative outlet. I seem to be too analytical.

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2020 was rough for everyone, I know that for me it was.

But it didn't start that way.

After the first 2 months of the year, I was telling everyone that would listen that 2020 was my year.

Everything was going my way:

New job

New responsibilities

I was feeling good with myself.

And then the pandemic hit us.

Let me tell you the first lockdown was somehow easy for me.

I’m a bit of an introvert, I like to be home, and I didn't have to lose time with commutes.

And then the lookdown disappeared and came back again. Several times.

And this second lockdown helped me remember that although I love time for myself and be home alone, I’m still human, and it seems that humans are social animals.

So, here we are in the last couple of months of the year, and 2020 that was supposed to be my year starts to disintegrate.

Spending most of the year home was not enough to save me from a car accident where I totaled my car.

My mental health started to go downhill with minimal social contact. I live by myself. This ends up being good since it made me finally start therapy.

I lost a very close family member to Covid.

And although spending most of the year at home with barely any human contact, I end up catching Covid. Let me tell you it was bad. Lost 10kg in 1,5 weeks and was almost unable to move more than 10m without needing to sit down.

Since everything was going great, after all this, I end up losing my job.

So 2021 starts, and I’m thinking this is completely opposite from the beginning of 2020. Let's hope that at least this year ends on a good note.

With all this, I started March completely lost.

Where should I look for a job? Should I keep the same kind of job? Should I use this opportunity to go after my dream job? What the hell will I do with my life?

And I decided to go ahead in all directions.

Instead of going down, I end up having more than 1 interview a day at the end of February. And March was the month where I decided to make my old travel blog come back from the dead. This was also an adventure, not sure how, but I end up deleting everything before bringing it back to life. It was not my goal.

The challenge

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One of the things that never let me have a very active blog is, as I tried to explain at the beginning of this post, my apparent lack of ability in translating the ideas on my head to something that can be understood by everyone.

This basically means that for me is not easy to write.

But, and since I have a goal of finishing 2021 on a positive note, I decided to put a challenge to myself.

Write and publish every day during the next 90 days.

Every post on this site seems to be about the need to publish daily to see some return.

So, and since saying this only in my head is probably not enough — I’m able to procrastinate at a very high level — I’m publishing this, to have the challenge out there.

Ah, and because it seems that I like those very hard challenges. Today is my first day on a 90-day project in a completely different area from anything related to writing, traveling, or any of the things I can end up writing here.

so which me luck, and I hope to be able to share some interesting stories in these next couple of months.