My counselor always talks to me about the things I can control. That is the foundation of trauma healing. I am building my own confidence and discovering my own self-worth through the things that I can control in my life. It is through that confidence that I can manage the moments that I can't.
I have always been a big fan of schedules/routines/planning. Part of the reason is that I am not a (naturally) organized person. One of the biggest misconception around is that schedule and planning is for naturally organized people. Truth is such tools and practice are most beneficial to people naturally… less organized (I am part of this category).
For as long as I can remember, I focused on everything and everyone but myself. I became an afterthought to current events, family and friends - and because I was raised to care for those around me, it didn't bother me at all.
I hate to say that I’m used to staying inside my house a large majority of my time (aside from store runs and doctor appointments), but that’s pretty much how it is. I’m disabled, collecting chronic conditions like Pokémon cards, and my life is basically my bed, my bathroom, store for groceries, and a plethora of doctor appointments. I stopped having a social life even while I was still in college, focusing on my work and trying to push past the pain I was in, and lost contact with most of the people I considered my friends afterwards when I got too sick to come visit and hang out.
Where on earth did this extra 3 inches come from? The increased girth around my midsection? Yes! I am referring to my expanded waist and hip-lines! Couple of months ago, I was incredibly worried something was wrong with me. Why? Despite my being a foodie, never skipping meals and persistent late-night snacking, I never seemed to pile up the pounds. I was as slim as someone on a dedicated restrictive diet. As a healthcare personnel, I have the tendency to diagnose myself with all sorts. Thus, I had no qualms pinning some illness to myself as proof of my loving relationship with food and no weight gain to show. Now I had the extra weight and I was mortified!
I don't drink, and that's something a lot of people have opinions about. Any lifestyle choice that you make is personal, but a lot of the time you'll find yourself constantly defending your decision. From my experience, many of the people who challenge you do it because they envy you. If I had a pound for every person who told me "I wish I was as strong as you" or "I wish I could do that" when I told them I don't drink, it could have paid my rent (and I live in London).
These days, when many people around the world are in-home quarantine, people's lifestyles have changed. We can no longer easily go to work or our job is closed. We can't go to see the people we love, and we can't do much of what we used to do easily during this time. Even if there is no ban or we live in a place where the coronavirus has not yet become widespread, we still do not want to do anything ourselves. Because we are both worried about our lives and trying to be responsible citizens and not cause more outbreaks of this virus.
Currently, I am a personal trainer at Lifetime-Greenwway in Houston, Texas. No, I’m not trying to advertise my services here, but by all means if you feel like you connect with me in some way through my writing and feel like you actually need help in the fitness department and I feel as though I can help you in return then feel free to come see me. I have been training others now for just over five years. It’s been fun and I enjoy it. The only down side is the long days that are spread out, and the constant rescheduling that can occur.
As a 20-year-old living in the life of budding technologies and a world that never sleeps. I found myself becoming easily overwhelmed by the pressure put on by countless companies, with their elixirs of life and their ‘Must haves’. Especially as a young person and even more so as a woman, there is a certain pressure put on you to look, act and be a certain way. This way of life that is ‘ideal’ is in-fact the least possible, and so I adopted minimalism.