By the time she
Came along I’d
Stitched my
Wounds closed
With dandelion stems
And decorated my
Notebooks with hope
❀
I wrapped her in
A blanket of validation
Because she reminded me
Of the girl I’d been before
I found the liberation of
Not caring what others thought
❀
When everyone else
Found the footpath
Leading away from
The back door
We both stayed
(We always stayed)
❀
When she let me in
To her house it
Instantly felt like
My second home
Freshly baked cookies
A cupboard always stocked
With caramel chocolate
And a welcoming smile
Every time I entered
❀
Quickly it became
Us against the world
Using fake happiness
As a shield against
Real desperation and hurt
Her presence was enough
To calm the storm in my stomach
And the stutter of my heartbeat
But when I assured her
She was enough she
Always struggled to believe it
When she promised me
She’d always stay
I chose to believe her
Against all odds and
Everything hinting otherwise
❀
We spent days walking
Along the safety of the beach
Salt water swelling around
Our ankles
She searched for crabs and
Saved jellyfish from being stranded
We talked about a life where
We could sink into happiness
And forgot that we’d already
Accomplished that with each other
❀
We faced the world
Side by side, shoulder to shoulder
Tied together with the words
We practically chanted
We’ll always stay
❀
I remember sitting under
A moonlit sky with her
Wishing tomorrows away
We talked about dreams
And disappearing and
Once again, a time where
We could be happy
Forgetting that
Our friendship
Was that time
❀
We drove to the sound
Of our favourite songs
Shouting the lyrics
Out of time but with
Laughter between
Every line and
Got lost at every turn
(Us against the world)
But found our way
Together
❀
The hours always
Passed too quickly
With night arriving
Too soon and one of us
Having to drive home and
Face the tomorrows
We hoped wouldn’t come
❀
I told her she deserved everything
And she said I already had everything
She said she wished she was me and
I took it as a compliment instead of
A sign pointing to a dead end road
❀
We gave each other everything we had
But as time passed we began
To wish for different things
The kind of love the other
Used to give us instead of
The kind they were holding now
❀
She started to paint me blue
Whenever water filled her lungs
And when I could see that it
Somehow gifted her oxygen
I made the sacrifice
Covering the cerulean shade
Of my skin with smiles so that
She could never see how
Healing her hurt me
❀
The laughter vanished
And the appreciation
Threatened to follow
She still offered me “thank you”s
But they didn’t sound as soft
When her other words were harsh
❀
I was swallowing
The pain she caused
Because I knew
I could handle that
But she couldn’t stand
Under the weight of
The guilt that had always
Come too easily to her
❀
When she found out
She was taking me apart
Piece by painful piece
She asked me
Why didn’t you tell me?
And then she showed me why
❀
We were standing
Side by side, shoulder to shoulder
But there was no longer
An us to face the world
It had torn us apart
I guess we both knew it
But I still chose to
Cling to hope and
Believe we could still
Find our way together
❀
She dropped useless apologies
At my feet alongside silence
And I tried to fill it with
The words that used to
Make her laugh but I could see
She was struggling under
The weight of the guilt I’d
Tried to shield her from and
I was still going mad with the knowledge
That giving my all had not been enough
❀
She told me the space
Between the night’s stars
Could bring us closer in the end
And I agreed, wishing on
The light that fell through
That dark space and
Thinking we’d always
Keep our promises
❀
She told me
Nothing could
Make me stay
And I buried the truth -
That anything could
❀
She’d always
Begged me to stay
But in the end it was her
Who walked away
❀
She told me there was
Nothing left for us
Even as I was planting seeds
Ready to start again
Ready to try anything
❀
She decided she needed
To face the world on her own
And all I could do was wonder
Why she couldn’t still
Stand by my side as she did it
❀
She says the sun
Is brighter than
She’s ever seen it
I fight the urge
To tell her I have no light
Not anymore
She was mine
❀
Instead, I am left in darkness
Trying desperately to comprehend
Her absence and why she
Felt the need to give it to me
When I gave her all of me
❀
And so the story that
Had hope on every page
And promised to end
The same way, finishes with
Me against the world and
Her against herself
❀❀❀❀❀
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Comments (6)
This is absolutely beautiful. So many lines.. so much said… so much… utter poetry. This one shook me and then you kept going, “Stitched my/Wounds closed/With dandelion stems” and “the stutter of my heartbeat” gosh how beautiful.
This was so good and honest. I felt like I was there with you for every step of the journey. Hearted and subscribed
Wow. This is amazing. Breathtaking actually. Very well done.
Whoaaaa, this was so emotional! It hit me so hard! So beautifully written! I loved it!
Very nice poem. Extremely well written. Great work
“She says the sun Is brighter than She’s ever seen it I fight the urge To tell her I have no light Not anymore She was mine”… this poem, omg. That ending 🥺 This is tragically beautiful. So well done!