Thoughts of an Introvert
The Human Canvas
"...She tried to find herself in places that didn't exist..."
I was a ghost to eyes who never bothered to look, a boring book to minds that never cared to read and a blank human canvas to those who never tried to understand. I am somebody, a very natural soul in a very unnatural world.
Introverted people tend to be written off as rude, anti-social and weird, but that is just one perspective. Okay yes, we are a bit weird but in the greatest sense of the word! We're not anti-social, we are just very wise in whom we choose to speak to. We don't talk just for the sake of talking...We speak when spoken to and when we have something to add to the world that is more beautiful than silence. We sense and read energy like an open book and if your frequencies align with ours, we become very open and you'll feel as if you've known us forever and vice versa. We absolutely despise small talk because it is so fake and forced! It's like eating a bunch of empty calories thinking you're doing your body a favor. You've encountered it before.. the dreaded exchange:
"How are you?"
-"Good how are you?"
"INSERT AWKWARD SILENCE HERE"
How awful! I cringe every time I encounter these exchanges and do you want to know why there's that awkward silence? It's because both parties know that this is just a formality and don't really give a shit about how the other person is generally. It's harsh, but it's the truth. I've learned over many trials and tribulations that at the very core of a person lies only the care and well being of their own self no matter how much they may seem to care. Family, friends and just about most people you encounter. Sad, but true reality.
I'm not sad or shy, I just don't feel like I have anything substantive to contribute at this time so I'm abstaining from polluting the environment with pointless noise emanating from my mouth. Frankly, I wish everyone would do the same. As an introvert, you can be your own best friend or your own worst enemy. We sincerely enjoy our own company, something extroverts seem to envy. We find comfort in solitude and we can heal ourselves without looking to any outside force for help. We think constantly and never really have much to say at all. Quiet people have the loudest minds.
I crave the silences that fill the air around me. Along with the solitude that usually accompanies it. They are my friends. They comfort me when the world starts to scream. I lay on the floor with music in my ears as I watch the gentle spirits fly around me. They recommend books for me to read as they sweeten my tea with stardust ☕️. I'm never truly alone. Like the boy and his imaginary friend, except that the only thing imaginary is the body the boy's soul is enraptured in.
There's no greater feeling than being able to just be yourself enjoying your own company without having to entertain anyone or worry about the fear of judgement. The greatest fear however for an introvert is not being alone, but being lonely. Of course, when you're super awesome you don't get too lonely 😉.
To all the introverts out there just remember, you are an evolved soul and you play a crucial role in the game of life.
Hooray and Happy Travels~
-Emrys Snow ❄️